I am incredibly predictable. Every time, every few months, I come back to this place. Each entry contains feelings that can't be expressed to the general public, or to anyone at all. This time, it's a little different. So, this one's for Grace, my best friend in the whole entire world.

Just like last time, I'm still scared out of my mind to say the things that I'm going to say. You are my best friend, and you always will be, and that's why I'm so scared of you. Your opinion matters the most to me, but I already know what you're going to say. So I've been beating around the bush. I like a boy.. and you would have no problem with that, except that his name is Thomas. So where do I go from here.. I know the way things started between him and I were totally random, and may even make him gay, haha. I love spending time with him, and he makes me happy. But you're my best friend, and that is put before everything else. The two of you had a thing, I know that, and I respect that. However, you chose Evan, and look how incredibly happy you are right now. I want your kind of happiness. So I'm asking you, hell, I'm begging you to give me a chance, to let me try and experience the happiness that you get every single day. I know you think that this is going to change things ever-so-slightly, but it doesn't have to. I'm asking your permission right now because I love you. We promised each other that we would never leave each other like we were left, so I'm keeping my part of the deal. So, to my best friend, those are thoughts running through my mind at a million miles an hour.