"I won't let anything happen to her. I care about her too much."

---The best feeling in the world? Feeling protected and cared for. Thanks.

I'm so afraid to love you, I'm more afraid to lose
Clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose..

My past. It's going to be the death of me. I'm so afraid to give him my heart, because every other time, it's been ripped apart. And to be completely honest, I can't take that again. My life has been a merry-go-round of heartbreak. Same story, different people. Every time. It's made me bitter, it's made me hard, and it's made me scared to trust people. And now that I've got him, my past is reminding me of what's happened every other time. It's telling me to close myself off, to push him away, and to run away from anything that will hurt me. I'm fighting with myself, trying to convince myself that he's not going to be like every other guy. But I'm still afraid.

Blondie3535: so how's life been treating you?
bswrestlerdork06: eh..
Blondie3535: :-\ that's no good
bswrestlerdork06: yeah...
Blondie3535: everything okay?
bswrestlerdork06: yeah, everythings fine
Blondie3535: alright
bswrestlerdork06 is away at 10:25 PM

I'll be there for you, these five words I swear to you.

6 am day after Christmas
I throw some clothes on in the dark
The smell of cold
Car seat is freezing
The world is sleeping
I am numb
Up the stairs to her apartment
She is balled up on the couch
Her mom and dad went down to Charlotte
They're not home to find us out
And we drive
Now that I have found someone
I'm feeling more alone
Than I ever have before
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly
They call her name at 7:30
I pace around the parking lot
Then I walk down to buy her flowers
And sell some gifts that I got
Can't you see
It's not me you're dying for
Now she's feeling more alone
Then she ever has before
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly
Off the coast and I'm headed nowhere
She's a brick and I'm drowning slowly
As weeks went by
It showed that she was not fine
They told me son it's time to tell the truth
She broke down and I broke down
'Cause I was tired of lying
Driving home to her apartment
For the moment we're alone
She's alone
I'm alone
Now I know it