I need to keep you like this in my mind..

Are we going up or just going down?
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
'Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

We're the therapists pumping through your speakers
Delivering just what you need
We're well read and poised
We're the best boys
We're the chemists who've found the formula
To make your heart swell and burst
No matter what they say, don't believe a word

'Cause I'll keep singing this lie if you'll keep believing it
I'll keep singing this lie
I'll keep singing this lie

Are we going up or just going down?
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
'Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

We're traveled like gypsies
Only with worse luck and far less gold
We're the kids you used to love
But then we grew old
We're the lifers here till the bitter end
Condemned from the start
Ashamed of the way
The songs and the words own the beating of our hearts

'Cause I'll keep singing this lie
I'll keep singing this lie

Are we going up or just going down?
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
'Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

There's a drug in the thermostat to warm the room up
And there's another around to help us bend your trust
I've got a sunset in my veins
And I need to take a pill to make this town feel okay

The best part of "believe" is the "lie",
I hope you sing along and you steal a line
I need to keep you like this in my mind
So give in or just give up

Are we going up or just going down?
It's just a matter of time until we're all found out
Take our tears and put them on ice
'Cause I swear I'd burn this city down to show you the light

Kiss me out of the bearded barley
Nightly, beside the green, green grass
Swing, swing, swing the spinning step
You wear those shoes and I will wear that dress

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift up your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me down by the broken tree house
Swing me upon it's hanging tire
Bring, bring, bring your flowered hat
We'll take the trail marked on your father's map

Oh, kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

Kiss me beneath the milky twilight
Lead me out on the moonlit floor
Lift your open hand
Strike up the band and make the fireflies dance
Silver moon's sparkling
So kiss me

So kiss me

24 hours
I've been sitting in the dirt for 24 hours
I'd forgotten my own worth for 24 hours
Said that you'd be here last night

I'm trying to shake you from my skin for 48 hours
Clean up this mess I've been put in for 48 hours

I'm guessing you can't always win

I can have anything I want
They say I'm just too young, but it's not my fault
I'll find my own way home if I gotta
I'll make it all alone if I gotta

I'm not so trustful with my friends
I'm on the road alone again
I guess I'm tired of giving in

I'm sick of wishing you were near
You've gone your way, you've made it clear
Why do I feel you everywhere?

I can have anything I want
They say I'm just too young, but it's not my fault
I'll find my own way home if I gotta
I'll make it all alone if I gotta

Don't wanna spend my time
Watching the world go by
I think I'd rather die
And I don't got a plan
Not gonna justify
To stay where I stand
Something I won't deny

I can have anything I want
They say I'm just too young, but it's not my fault
I'll find my own way home if I gotta
I'll make it all alone if I gotta
For 24 hours

Let's go out tonight.

I feel chained down

Chained down

You shove me to the ground

I can't run, I can't shout

Held back, just let me out

For someone heartless

This couldn't mean less

But I'll push it in your face

(I've got my reasons)

I'm only human

(And I've got something to say)

Let me rise
Let me fall
Let me breathe

I wanna lose control, I'm not afraid to lose it all

Let me break

Let me crawl

'Cause I will get back up again, if you let me fall

If I burn down

In this fire

I've got myself to blame

I can't stop

Or give up

I need to feel the pain

Can you hear me?
Don't come near me

You just get in my way

I'm only human

And there's nothing you can say

He's such a beautiful disaster.

A few songs for my mood this morning. Enjoy.

Won't you let me catch your fall?
Won't you let me lend a hand?

Those lonely eyes have seen it all

But love's too blind to understand

'Cause you don't know what you have

Til your everything is gone

You need someone to show you how to live again

I wanna be there when you're feeling high

I wanna be there when you wanna die

I'm gonna light your fire

Gonna feel your flame

I wanna be there when you go insane

I wanna be there when you're feeling down
And I'll be there when your head is spinnin' round

Gonna be your lover

Gonne be your friend

I wanna be there til the end

I wanna be there in the pouring rain

I wanna be there when you call my name

I'm gonna light your fire

Gonna feel your flame

I wanna be there when you go insane

I wanna be there when I'm out of town

And when your whole damn world is crashing down

This post is in honor of Alison Elizabeth Aunkst.

Every even day, from 11:45 to 1:15, I am blessed to be in the presence of the beautiful Ali Aunkst. Her cheer, humor, and spunk always makes (or make, says my Honors English Queen) my day much more enjoyable. During this short class that we have together, time is often spent making fun of our favorite Dan Calaman (Calamari). This is our definition of fun. Doing this keeps us sane in our high-stress class with Mr. Shields. Thomas Hanniford and Ali Aunkst will end up married someday and make beautiful children. This is all a true statement.

Dan Calaman often finds it enjoyable to crush my head with his massive upper body.

Oh, the joys of Yearbook with my beautiful Alison Aunkst.

I love her with all of my heart.

So I don't even know where to start. I'm angry at myself, I'm angry at a few others. I've hurt a few, been hurt by a few. It's a give and take, I guess. I'm just not sure what to do right now. I don't want to talk to anyone because I don't trust them. JEGJMP. I made that list last night. And a big part of relationships--especially being best friends--that requires trust, right?

I trusted that you'd always be mine.
I trusted that you wouldn't talk about me.
Trust me.. I didn't do it on purpose.
I trusted you with our frienship when you went off to college.
Trust me when I say that I do love you, and I'm always here for you.
Trust me when you need to talk. We agreed that our relationship was ridiculous in the first place.. go with that.

I can't just jump back into things. It takes me a little bit of time. And with the two of you talking like you do, I feel like I'm not even needed, like we don't even need to be GAE.. and that just makes the process take even longer. It'll take me a few days to get back into the swing of talking to you. And you.. I don't know. I'm just frusterated.

But, on a lighter note, I've found one person that makes me feel better. One. No, not Jordan.. haha, yeah right. Not my closest friends. Someone new. But who knows how long this will last.

nl

All at once, the crowd begins to sing..

I don't think that it's ever hurt so much.