Elster5306: look at his away message
Elster5306: your between commas

867-5309. hah. :-P

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haven't heard this song in quite a while..

do not tell me what i can and cannot do when i rock

(wait, hold up, this is my favorite part)

do not tell me what i can and cannot do when i rock

do not tell me what i can and cannot do when i rock

(you know what man? you pay five bucks to come in here

to just stand in the back and act like you're too "hard" to

enjoy yourself! Well, actually, I didn't have to pay)

to each his own correctin', don't select my flavor

while see them in the back critiquin' my behavior now

tryin' to take creation and me to fit his mold

he yelled out sellout but maybe he wasn't told

so let me tell this shallow mind why we do what we do

I create for the creator but not to impress you ok

I'll challenge your thinkin' but not to test you

you might not like me, I'll still say "God bless you"

and this trust issue, it's all love n' respect

and honestly bro, I don't think that 's too much to expect

but too many times your shallow mind will keep you caught

you can't escape your thinkin' all you've ever been taught

is that you walk this way

you talk this way

you front this way

you pose this way

you react this way

na, na that ain't me

I got to be who God created me to be

do not tell me what I can and cannot do when I rock

why is it as humans we cling on to only what we know

never expanding and stepping out our comfort zone

we walk alone and then roam in ignorance

they turn back around and use it as a defense

for shallowness, this seems to be a concern

cuz not knowin' is an excuse for those who willin' to learn

Alright, I need all people in the front to the back,

the back to the front, let's get down, we gon' do it like this

do not tell me what I can and cannot do when I rock

original material my crew nonstop

we're keepin' it fly we'll turn it out

ya'll feelin' some of that? no doubt!

do not stereotype the individual

cuz what you hear in your stereo is not the typical

stereoypes get broken now when I'm provokin'

new levels of thought so leave the shallow minds open

cats approachin' me without no lack or no clue

I understand though bro, see someone's been training you

to think like you think and act like you do

its' getting old not like it should have ever been new

but as long as shallowness exists I shall assist

to rip apart the whole structure and expose the nucleus

shallowness exists, I shall persist to rip

apart the whole structure and expose it for what it is

lack of understanding, lack of communication

lack of a desire for expanding education

lack of inspiration, lack of innovation

the fact you can't respect another mans creation

lack of motiviation, lack of restoration

the fact we lack unity and enjoy separation

lack of destination because you know what I feel

I feel that humans lack the ability to be real

soooo no lauren's tonight.. or ehly's. this saddens me :( that's okay.. i get to spend some quality time with the family.. and then maybe go shopping.. that's always good fun.

happy belated birthday to Emma DeVault on the 16th. Here's to 15.

happy belated surprise birthday to Grace Murtoff on Wednesday. Here's to 15.

happy early birthday to Caitlin Heinlen in 6 days. Here's to 16.


why don't you write me?

so this is for the past day or so..

wednesday night i spent the night at erin's house and we planned out everything that we were going to do for grace :) we stayed up till like 3 watching 'win a date with matt mcdermott', then we went to bed, got up around 9? yeah, then jason told us he wanted pancakes, so we made him those eensy-beensy teeny-weeny aunt jemima ones.. haha clever move on erin's part. so yes, when jason got there at 10:15, he had pancakes. then we picked up brianna and went to wal-mart. alright, we had three pictures to print out, so we went to the picture section of wal-mart and stuck the cd in the computer and proceeded to fill out a form for erin mcdermott, 226-5811 (hehe) when we realized that we were on the wrong computer.. and the computer we needed was being worked on. so we went and picked out dvd's for grace (the prince & me and tuck everlasting) and jason and i went back to the picture section to find the computer was in working order but there was a guy using it. so we got in line.. twenty minutes later the redneck in front of us was done printing his 29 pictures of dirt and trucks. i was angry. so we stepped up to the computer and it said "printer is out of ribbon." great. the redneck printed 29 picutres of dirt and trucks and took up all the ribbon. gah. not a patient person, can you tell? so then the lady had to come put the ribbon in which took her 5 minutes (remember: we were on a schedule and i still had to pick out a card and get sorbet!).. so then we got the pictures and left. ugh. then i realized what time it was (11:20!!!) and i made erin go pick out my card while jason and i got sorbet and ice cream. erin picked out a lovely card ("i thought it fit your personality"): happy birthday to you, now when do we eat? <--gee thanks, erin. haha i might just have to go anorexic on you (ahem matt ahem).. so then we checked out and left and only managed to be 8 minutes late to pick up grace..

so when we got there she was blindfolded at the table.. we came in without saying a word because we didn't want her to know that it was us.. so we put on her tiara and birthday girl pin and led her outside into the car.. haha that was really funny to try to do without laughing. so we got her in the car, drove around in a bunch of circles, and stopped at a bridge. erin and i got her out and led her through some weeds and over the bridge while cars drove by (and a truck full of guys drove by.. hehe to see grace in her tiara.. i laughed) and she was freaking out.. so then we put her back in the car and drove to erin's house.. erin got out and jason drove us around the neighborhood for a minute or two then we led grace into her backyard (where grace apparently CHEATED).. then i pulled off her blindfold and we all tooted out horns.. and she screamed. it was great. she was shaking, haha.. oh man, it was the best. so then we gave her her gifts and ate pizza and ice cream (and sorbet), then we got in the pool.. err, were thrown in the pool. but it was a good time.. too bad we had to cut it early, i had a scrimmage (check out http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=coffeebeaner68).. so jason took grace home, dropped me off at the locker room (aww, he's leaving tomorrow.. that makes me sad), then took erin to practice. so that was the extent of the best day of my life, haha. then last night, i got a call from kendra, which was nice, i haven't talked to her in a while. so that was nice.. yesterday was just.. a great day.

sweet.

I guess this time you're really leaving

I heard your suitcase say goodbye

Well, as my broken heart lies bleeding

You say true love, it's suicide

You say you've cried a thousand rivers

And now you're swimming for the shore

You left me drowning in my tears

And you won't save me anymore

I pray to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you

These five words I swear to you

When you breathe I want to be the air for you

I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you

Steal the sun from the sky for you

Words can't say what a love can do

I'll be there for you

I know you know we're had some good times

Now they have their own hiding place

I can't promise you tomorrow

But I can't buy back yesterday

And, baby, you know my hands are dirty

But I wanted to be your valentine

I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby

When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you

These five words I swear to you

When you breathe I want to be the air for you

I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you

Steal the sun from the sky for you

Words can't say what a love can do

I'll be there for you

And I wasn't there when you were happy

I wasn't there when you were down

I didn't mean to miss your birthday, baby

I wish I'd seen you blow those candles out

I'll be there for you

These five words I swear to you

When you breathe I want to be the air for you

I'll be there for you

I'd live and I'd die for you

Steal the sun from the sky for you

Words can't say what a love can do

I'll be there for you

Name 20 people you know in random order:

1. Elliot
2. Erin
3. Grace
4. Lindsay
5. Jason
6. Bri
7. Kristin
8. Sarah
9. Dan
10. Jordan
11. Matt
12. Kirsti
13. Caitlin
14. Pat
15. Emily
16. Jestine
17. Hannah
18. Dave
19. Matt (the Brit)
20. Tommy

How did you meet 13? field hockey in 7th grade
What would you do if you never met 5? awww, be very very sad.. and have no one there to cheer me on.. and to remind about those flippin' undergarments.
What do you honestly think of 10? he's my big brother, what's not to think?
Would or did 19 and 8 date? hmm, no, considering they don't even know each other.
If 1 died tomorrow, what is one thing that you would need him/her to know? hmm.. i'd want him to know that while he was alive i'm glad that i could show him up on the simplest things--like getting on inflatable fish in the pool :)
Have you ever liked 3? haha very much so.. but not more than i like SORBET!
Would 2 and 11 make a good couple? haha erin and matt.. :) incest, i'll leave it at that.
Describe 7 in 3 words? horses, amsterdam, and peaches
Do you think 12 is hot? lol, heck yes KEARE!
Would 1 and 17 make a lovely couple? hannah and elliot. eww.
What do you think when you see 8? SARAH! HOW PRETTY!
Tell me something humiliating about 11. hmm.. i don't think i have any embarrasing stories about matt.. that'll have to change.
Do you know any of 3's family members? not personally
What's 20's favorite color? hmm.. red?
On a scale of 1-10 how cute is 14? peaches is peaches. that's all, haha
What would you do if 4 just professed their undying love for you? i would be amused :) heck yes, lindsay, lol
What language does 19 speak? ENGLISH! lol, what a coincidence
Who is 8 going out with? noooobody
Is 9 a boy or a girl? hmm, questionable.
Would 18 and 4 make a good couple? dave and lindsay? no way. he's too shy, she's too.. not, lol
What grade is 17 in? she'll be a junior
When was the last time you talked to 12? today at hockey
What is 3's favorite band? no so much a band, but kelly clarkson
Does 1 have any siblings? yep, meg
Would you ever date 6? lol, sorry bri
Would you ever date 7? lol, sorry kristin
Is 15 single? yes
What is 19s last name? wells
What is 5's middle name? allyn
What is 10's fantasy? hmm.. erin :) hahaha, juuust kidding.
Would 14 and 19 make a good couple? haha they'd make pretty athletic babies if it were at all possible
What school does 16 go to? bshs
What school does 1 go to? bshs
Where does 9 live? don't know
Would you make out with 13? haha, sorry caitlin
Are 5 and 6 best friends? lol not quite, but pretty darn good friends
Is 12 older than you? yeah, everyone is older than me
Is 17 the sexiest person alive? lol heck yes she is.

tonight--oasis (with the slip-n-slide. sweet.) after my great-grandma's birthday party.. and at oasis (after the freakin' awesome slip-n-slide, that is) we're tye-dying shirts and saying good-bye to tk (in all his perfectness), jake (in all his sleepyness.. during church, lol), jeff (in all his outgoingness), and jason (in all his.. hmm.. musicness, outgoingness, funnyness, and.. threateningness?.. lol yes). shall be sad, but a good time, none the less.

'tis all for now.

jordan--i'm on the verge of extremely disliking you. jerk. that was cruel. cruel, cruel, cruel.

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my fathers come to pass
seven years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

ring out the bells again
like we did when spring began
wake me up when september ends

here comes the rain again
falling from the stars
drenched in my pain again
becoming who we are

as my memory rests
but never forgets what I lost
wake me up when september ends

summer has come and passed
the innocent can never last
wake me up when september ends

like my father's come to pass
twenty years has gone so fast
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends
wake me up when september ends

so i looked up our pimped names..

mine: dirty dick
lindsay: the purple suit
meredith: ding dong bong
erin: jolly jacobson
grace: ghetto fabulouso
emily: duq whack
kristin: vagina wagon

hmm.. football players watching us practice? motivating. :) although i couldn't help wondering if.. -sigh- i wish. ah, c'est la vie.

hannah: can anyone get me a gun?

holly: we're good, really, we are.
lindsay: except for when you snuck out.
holly: that was once. but really, we just have a different kind of fun.

BW's for LIFE!

Wishin1CouldRock (7:02:17 AM): i love you abby! :)

aww, don't leave.

'And now that this scared little girl no longer follows me wherever I go, I miss her. I do. 'Cause there are things I wanna tell her... to relax, to lighten up, that it is all going to be ok. I want her to know that meeting people who like you, who understand you, who actually accept you for who you are, will become an increasingly rare occurrence. Jen, Jack, Audrey, Andie, Pacey, and Dawson. These people who contributed to who I am, they are with me wherever I go, and as history gets rewritten in small ways with each passing day, my love for them only grows. Because the truth is... it was the best of times. Mistakes were made, hearts were broken, harsh lessons learned, but all of that has receded into fond memory now. How does it happen? Why are we so quick to forget the bad and romanticize the good? Maybe it's because we need to believe that the time we spent together actually meant something, that we were there for each other in a time in our lives that defined us all, a time in our lives that we will never forget. I can't swear this is exactly how it happened. But this is how it felt.'

two years later, you're still on my mind.

90 miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving, I don't know why
So many questions I need some answers
Two years later you're still on my mind
Whatever happened to the Uptown theatre?
Yeah, it held the stars up in the sky
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

Someday we'll know
Why love can't move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't there for you

Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Or what the wind says when she cries?
I'm speeding by the place where I met you
For the 97th time

Someday we'll know
Why love can't move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't there for you
Someday we'll know
If love is do or die for
Someday we'll know
Why it died so soon
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't there for you

I bought a ticket back to where I came from
I watched my past crash in the sea
If I could ask you just one question
Why aren't you here with me?

Someday we'll know
Why love can't move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't there for you
Someday we'll know
If love is do or die for
Someday we'll know
Why it died so soon
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't there for you
Someday we'll know
Someday we'll know
Someday we'll know

ok, so i'm addicted to spider solitaire. :) haha and i decided to re-read this lullabye.. grace gave it back to me the other day and i picked it up and started to read because (FINALLY) i finished disputed passage, so that left me with already read books. hmph, why not? anyways, in this book, i've found some pretty kick-butt lines that i'll be posting over the next couple of days.

He smiles, and for a second I felt a tug, some alien feeling that made me, for an instant, want to pull him back within arm's length.

I nodded, cool as ever, and he turned the corner, leaving me stanging there. Watching him go. What a weird feeling that was. I decided I didn't like it. Not at all.

"I've seen what commitment leads to, and it isn't pretty. Going in is the easy part. It's the endings that suck."

For a minute, neither of us said anything. After so many years of only thinking these things, saying them out loud felt so strange, as if now they were officially real. My cold, hard heart exposed, finally, for what it truly was. Fair warning, I thought. I should have told you from the start. I will let you down.

You know, when it works, love is pretty amazing. It's not overrated. There's a reason for all those songs.

bravesbabie810: doesnt dawson look like he'd have a biggin' though?

hell week, day number one is officially over. sweet. it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. we timed miles, then did 4 laps around the field (warm ups and cool downs).. then we did a buttload of drills and a few scrimmages.. that's it. i was definitely expecting coach to be like, hmm, alright, go run 3 miles.. be back in 24 minutes. haha i would've laughed if that were the case.. but i'm pretty sure that i wouldn't have been laughing around the 2nd mile.. in fact, i may be close to death, haha. but i'm alive, in one piece, and not even sore (haha sorry, erin). tomorrow, same thing except no 5-6 session (schwing).. and the first session is just half an hour longer. alright, i'm out. good night, all.

here's my love to you.

am i the only one? yeah. am i sexual? yeah.
^hahahahaha that amused me.

grace is coming over tonight :) makes me happy.. haven't seen her in a long time! oldies night, jam-packed with sorbet, mac-n-cheese, and popcorn.. sweet. nine-oh in the morning? maybe (erin) if i feel like going (i don't).. same goes for oasis.. except i don't quite have a ride to ashley's. oh darn. :)

oh, and can i say how much i hate babysitting two 2-year-olds at once? yes, it really is quite the pain.

and i saved the best for last: sarah's pregnant. :)

i'll never break your heart.

Baby, I know you are hurting
Right now you feel like you could never love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you
From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would be together forever
When I asked you out
You said no, but I found out
Darling, that you'd been hurt
You felt that you'd never love again
I deserve a try, honey, just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey, he's nothing like me

I'll never break your heart
I'll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey, that's no lie

As time goes by,
You will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes
And I know you're afraid
To let your feelings show
And I understand
But girl, it's time to let go
I deserve a try, honey
Just once
Give me chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in, you were so quick to judge
But honey, he's nothing like me
Darling, why can't you see

No way, no how
I'll make you cry

hmm.. got some good news tonight, let me tell ya. haha, erin and matt should be twins. they asked me the same questions.. i appreciate the concern though, guys. the concert was freakin' awesome, haha.. for a while, i traveled back into the days of my childhood. those were the good days.

every rose has its thorn
just like every night has its dawn
just like every cowboy sings his sad, sad song

Empty spaces fill me up with holes
Distant faces with no place left to go
Without you within me I can’t find no rest
Where I’m going is anybody’s guess

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

Voices tell me I should carry on
But I am swimming in an ocean all alone
Baby, my baby
It’s written on your face
You still wonder if we made a big mistake

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

I don’t mean to drag it on, but I can’t seem to let you go
I don’t wanna make you face this world alone
I wanna let you go

I’ve tried to go on like I never knew you
I’m awake but my world is half asleep
I pray for this heart to be unbroken
But without you all I’m going to be is incomplete

as of right now, i just wasted $300 and i'm extremely upset with the management of east coast field hockey. so for all who don't know this, i left my retainers at camp.. well, there are NO phones up there to call, and they hardly ever check e-mails. but i thought i'd give it a try and e-mail them and see if they found any up there.. and they didn't write back, and they didn't write back, and they didn't write back.. so this morning i went to the orthodontist to have them make new retainers. $300 later, i get a freaking e-mail from camp saying they have the retainers. i want to kill. they were only about 3 hours too late! and it cost me $300. not cool. annnyways.. i'm at nan and jerry's right now, kyle's napping.. so i get paid to do whatever. then at 4, back to work for 2 hours. then tonight, i'm making samples to take to the barracks tomorrow.. sweet.

tomorrow: war college, then dave's coming over.
friday: work, then backstreet boys concert!!!! haha i'm going old-school for the night. sweet.
saturday: work, then sorbet night when grace gets back.
sunday: church, oasis, whatever.
monday: preseason starts. duh-duh-duh-duuuuuuh.

have a good day, everybody.

bravesbabie810: well.. thats cuz boys are horny and shallow.

soccer12andahalf: don't get pregnant
soccer12andahalf: all i have to say
soccer12andahalf: later abby
Blondie3535: gee, thanks

bravesbabie810: the only reason anyone likes me is cuz they think im hot.
Blondie3535: haha you are hott! (I'M BI! LIKE JEN! haha just kidding.)

sugar, we're going down swinging.

hey everyone.. last night rocked. good concert. we met up with everyone and talked for a while. pat (the germ-phobe), kristin, erin, matt, ko, ash pasq, elizabeth, and kirsti.. good time. and meredith got her birthday lettuce (and the tradition continues). this morning, me and mere watched jason bourne run around my tv screen for about 4 hours, then made lunch, and just dilly-dallied till 3 when she left. now, i'm here for another hour or so, then i'm going with my mom (sorry girls, no open field. this is my theory, hear me out: i haven't gone all summer, why start now? i'm beyond help already, haha), then perhaps ice cream (but i think i may go shopping instead, sorry). tomorrow: orthodontist appointment (getting new retainers. oops.), then work. thursday: barracks/war college for the day.. visiting with uncle bob and working around there for the day. always fun :) je suis un véritable gosse d'armée. haha, then dave may be coming over for a while. friday: work, then drive-ins. sweet. :) saturday: grace is back! and we'll be having a sorbet night. sweet, so this week looks pretty nice. love you all.

-abs (heh, matt. london's not too far, right?)

How many times do I have to try to tell you
That I'm sorry for the things I've done
But when I start to try to tell you
That's when you have to tell me
Hey, this kind of trouble's only just begun
I tell myself too many times
Why don't you ever learn to keep your big mouth shut
That's why it hurts so bad to hear the words
That keep on falling from your mouth
Falling from your mouth
Falling from your mouth
Tell me...
Why?
Why?
I may be mad
I may be blind
I may be viciously unkind
But I can still read what you're thinking
And I've heard it said too many times
That you'd be better off
Besides...
Why can't you see this boat is sinking
Let's go down to the water's edge
And we can cast away those doubts
Some things are better left unsaid
But they still turn me inside out
Turning inside out turning inside out
Tell me.. Why?
Tell me.. Why?
This is the book I never read
These are the words I never said
This is the path I'll never tread
These are the dreams I'll dream instead
This is the joy that's seldom spread
These are the tears, the tears we shed
This is the fear
This is the dread
These are the contents of my head
And these are the years that we have spent
And this is what they represent
And this is how I feel
Do you know how I feel?
'Cause I don't think you know how I feel
I don't think you know what I feel
I don't think you know what I feel
You don't know what I feel

it felt like springtime on this february morning.

you are my sunshine
my only sunshine
you make me happy
when skies are gray
you'll never know dear
how much i love you
please don't take
my sunshine away.

sing it again.

it was her wedding day.. a sunny day in june. she was pregnant.. that was probably the main reason she was getting married in the first place. if she would have known that it wouldn't last forever, maybe she wouldn't have done it and saved herself and her family from a lot of pain. her mother was happy for her. her father wasn't even there. and that hurt her more than she could ever know. her father was a raging alcoholic who, 7 years down the road, would be hospitilized for it.. he's have a brush with death. but back on that sunny day in june, he wasn't there. it was the most special day of his daughter's life and he wasn't there. her father didn't approve of the groom, who knows why. she didn't know if it was because of his hair, or the sports that he played, or maybe it was because he only went to college for 2 years before getting his girlfriend, the bride, pregnant. who knows. all she knew is that her brother, leo, was walking her down the aisle, giving her away--instead of her father. that scarred her for the rest of her life. now, here we are.. that bride and groom only made it 10 years, then fell out of love, i suppose. they had a baby girl, born 4 months after the wedding, in october. 3 years later, they had a son, also born in october. 4 years later, they seperated, and divorced the year after that. 15 years later, i heard the story from my own dad, the groom. my grandfather never showed up to my mom's wedding.. she was pregnant with me.. and my grandfather hated them for it.

off that note, i'm a little angry right now. not just with one person, several. 1) my grandfather for being so consumed in his drinks at that time that he couldn't even show up to my mother's wedding.. i was the tension between them. do you understand how that feels? to have that weight on your shoulders? 2) erin, for one reason or another. i did something thinking on this one today and i realized.. the only times i've been upset with her, it's been over a freaking guy. i see something very wrong with that picture. whether it's a guy she's interested in or not, it's always a guy. always. pathetic. 3) lindsay for the usual trash-talking. maybe if i wouldn't have called, i wouldn't have been topic of all things horrible. i realize last year at homecoming, i pulled a stupid. i realize that, i apologized, everyone's moved on, now it's your turn. honestly. now, i don't know what other specifics were mentioned, but you seriously need to shut up. 4) aaron, because i haven't spoken to him in months (read: because i just want to be).. 5) and myself for all viable reasons found throughout this post.. for being angry with people for next to no reason at all and for just.. thinking too much.

"i'm not going anywhere, just close your eyes and go to sleep."

Who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time
And who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose, only time

Who can say why your heart sighs
As your love flies, only time
And who can say why your heart cries
When your love lies, only time

Who can say when the roads meet
That love might be in your heart
And who can say when the day sleeps
If the night keeps all your heart
Night keeps all your heart

Who can say if your love grows
As your heart chose- Only time
And who can say where the road goes
Where the day flows, only time

Who knows? Only time

king: pete
queen: mama stuber :) good 'ol enya!

Call you up in the middle of the night
Like a firefly without a light
You were there like a slow torch burning
I was a key that could use a little turning

So tired that I couldn't even sleep
So many secrets I couldn't keep
Promised myself I wouldn't weep
One more promise I couldn't keep

It seems no one can help me now
I'm in too deep
There's no way out
This time I have really led myself astray

Runaway train never going back
Wrong way on a one way track
Seems like I should be getting somewhere
Somehow I'm neither here no there

Can you help me remember how to smile?
Make it somehow all seem worthwhile
How on earth did I get so jaded?
Life's mystery seems so faded

I can go where no one else can go
I know what no one else knows
Here I am just drownin' in the rain
With a ticket for a runaway train

Everything is cut and dry
Day and night, earth and sky
Somehow I just don't believe it

Bought a ticket for a runaway train
Like a madman laughin' at the rain
Little out of touch, little insane
Just easier than dealing with the pain

Runaway train never comin' back
Runaway train tearin' up the track
Runaway train burnin' in my veins
Runaway but it always seems the same

hey y'all, i'm home. :) don't want to be though, i wish that the 12 of us were up in manhattan with matt right now. -sigh- but all good things must come to an end, right? hmph, unfortunately. haha i'll write all the little jokes from this week in my xanga sometime tonight, so if you feel like reading them, go there. i'll spare you from most of them on here. anyways, got home today around 4:30, talked to grace for like, 30 seconds (but i read all of her e-mails, so it was all good.. i missed you bracie). tomorrow she's going to six flags, then she leaves for the beach.. that's a long time without a sorbet night (heh, comments on that one?).. oh well, i'll keep myself busy making that scrapbook for matt. :) i'll be sure to include the ones from the pitches, our studs and bibs, skills, loo, our hut, pony and trap, queues, strikes, pavs, fairies, amsterdam (gotta say it like matt does) and those bloody hibernating rabbits. this was a good week.

but now that i'm home, i've come to realize that i'm a pretty crappy friend. i only missed two people while i was gone. two. haha, actually, i'm kind of amused by it. ooooh well, i'm happy.

here's to our all-stars: kelsey webber (broken nose and all.. we love you, girl) and kate stabbas (mama stuber!).. we're so proud of you.

matt: you're like a hibernating rabbit.
me: do rabbits hibernate?
matt: no, but you should take a nap.

"the girl with the pink bracelet. she's mine, she's mine, she's mine."

keare: i'm so hot!
carlee: tell me about it.

god d*mn hank, get your racoons off my porch!

-abs