the space between the wicked lies..

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! (ok, so a day late, no big deal). Ahh, tomorrow is going to be a great day.. we're headed out bright in early in the morning to Florida. I'm soo excited. :) YAY! The beach in December, who can complain? Ahh, and Aladdin! Here I come! Haha, oh man, can you guys all tell that I'm pumped? I'll send you all postcards and e-mails.. I'm pretty sure our resort has internet access.. I can send you pictures, too. Eeshk, yay, what a Christmas. Emily, I'll send you the picture of Peter Pan and Lindsay, I'll send you the picture of our hott Disney character, Aladdin haha :) Well, I have to go finish packing, so here's the song of the day and I'll talk to you all later. Love you. :)

-abby

You cannot quit me so quickly
There's no hope in you for me
No corner you could squeeze me
But I got all the time for you, love
The Space Between
The tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain
But will I hold you again?
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me
Like 'Will it rain today?'
Waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted games we're playing
We're strange allies
With warring hearts
What wild-eyed beast you be
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep safe from the pain
Will I hold you again?
Will I hold...
Look at us spinning out in
The madness of a roller coaster
You know you went off like a devil
In a church in the middle of a crowded room
All we can do, my love
Is hope we don't take this ship down
The Space Between
Where you're smiling high
Is where you'll find me if I get to go
The Space Between
The bullets in our firefight
Is where I'll be hiding, waiting for you
The rain that falls
Splash in your heart
Ran like sadness down the window into...
The Space Between
Our wicked lies
Is where we hope to keep safe from pain
Take my hand
'Cause we're walking out of here
Oh, right out of here
Love is all we need here
The Space Between
What's wrong and right
Is where you'll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we'll fill with time
The Space Between...

I know that there won't be Christmas without you..

Hey all.. last night was fun for the most part.. some people were mad for no apparent reason and totally ruined the whole Christmas mood. But then some of us went caroling.. and the chorus people got A's for when they were supposed to sing for a grade.. and then Tim Corby answered the door in his boxers. haha we are so mean :) After that everything got better, I guess. Everyone was still divided but my group definitely had a blast. Autumn: Looks like SOMEONE had a little too much to drink (Erin was like passed out on the couch). Oh yes, we had fun. You're my hero, Lindsay. AWWW THAT IS SOOOO SWEET! I definitely loved the bear, you deserved it haha.. now, don't cry, Chipper Jons. Around 9 we made a toast to Christmas, New Years, and to many more years with our friends. We had fun.. and Erin and I definitely enjoyed that sparkling cider a little TOO much. And then there's Spencer. He liked my body pillow a little too much haha.. So that was the party.. :)

Today is Christmas Eve and I am walking around my house in shorts and a tank top.. what is wrong with me? Haha I'm the one that FREEZES during the summer and here I am. Oy. So today at 3, we are going to my Grammy's house to open some of our presents.. then after that we're going to Nan's for some Christmas food and to watch a movie.. Tomorrow, I have to get up early, open Dad and Sarah's presents, then Grammy is coming over to give us the rest of hers. After that, Ralph and Chris are coming over.. then at noon we're going to Grandma's house to eat lunch and open presents.. then at 4 or 5 I'm going with my mom to open presents. Then on Sunday, I'm going to my Granny's in Maryland to open presents from that whole side of the family. Christmas is crazy, but so much fun. :) Alright, well I have to go get ready for today, so here's the song of the day..

All I ever needed was to eat popcorn with you
Come on over
Watch the late show
Stay up talking until two

Today's the day you're leaving
And tomorrow you'll be gone
you're in my heart and on my mind
I will bring you along

everything sucks when you're gone
everything sucks when you're gone

a dream of our reunion makes me crazy just to think
how so very far away you are
my hopes begin to sink

today's the day you're leaving
and tomorrow you'll be gone
you're in my heart and on my mind
I will bring you along

everything sucks when you're gone
everything sucks when you're gone

it's not ok
I've baked dinner here for two
and it's not ok
I've got candles lit for two
and it's not ok
I've got your favorite records out
and it's not ok
you should have let it be
and ran after me

today's the day you're leaving
and tomorrow you'll be gone
you're in my heart and on my mind
I will bring you along

everything sucks when you're gone
I want you, I need you
everything sucks when you're gone
I want you, I need you

haha great song.. you gotta hear it sometime.

Merry Christmas to you all. I love you so much, I don't what I would do without the help of my friends. :) I hope this Christmas brings all that you want it to and that this upcoming year is one a little more fun (because who wants boring?) and a little more crazy. "I hope you have the time of your life." Happy Holidays.

I don't have the strength to speak tonight....

Hello all.. This is Emily the bestest friend of Abby in the world.. today has been a very eventful day.. this morning @ 11 o'clock Erin and I came over here to Abby's house to get ready for her christmas party which is tonight.. so we baked miniture cheesecake.. and we were like supposed to put vanilla wafers on the bottom, but we forgot so we had to call Aaron and get more cupcake liners because we ruined all the other ones.. so yeah thank-you Aaron.. anyhow.. then we cooked those.. and baked cookies and ate half of the cookie batter stuff.. cause it's incredibly awesome and good.. yum.. so then we were cleaning her family room and Evan's toys were all over the place.. so Erin and I were like "Let's trash 'em".. but Abby wouldn't let us.. too bad.. lol jp.. so then she made me vacuum and that wasn't fun.. I was like wreastling with the vacuum cleaner.. it was bad.. so then the house was clean and the window started to leak and there was water all over the floor and yeah it wasn't good either.. then we took a break and talked about our favorite subject.. yeah.. and then we talked about our trips when we go off to college.. and we're going to back-pack across the "country" of Europe right Erin? lol.. Abby wants to go to Russia though.. but we'll be gone for like 3 years if we do that and some people might miss us.. but we're going to do something fun.. because college is going to stink w/out our daily does of talking.. o Abby's going to finish this blog later because we have to go make some kind of sandwhich.. so yeah..
-Emily

I believe that love is the answer..

Sweet! Awesome news! I'm not going to the Christmas Eve service. Ahh, yay. You have no idea how much that excites me! I think the whole family is going to Ralph and Chris' to do a pre-Christmas Christmas. I don't have to dress up and it will keep my mind on Christmas and oh, it'll be wonderful. I know that I probably sound like such a geek for being excited about not being there on Christmas Eve, but it'll be so much more fun being with El, and Meg, Ev, and Kyle.. I can relax and dring hot chocolate. And it'll just be.. easier. Like I can actually take a deep breath and lay my head back and not have to worry about single thing in the world except for those who really love me.. those closest to me.. my family. Oh, what would I do without them?

-Abby R.B.

the tension is here.

ahh, definitely in higher spirits since the last post.. all due to Meredith and her awesome Christmas presents. I read the WHOLE book today when I got home from school.. that definitely helped. But, can't help but wonder if there is a guy like Todd really out there, you know? "You are the one I cherish.'' "Anger is the fluid that love bleeds when you cut it." Mmm, yep that hit close to home. And then the cd.. oh man, I layed on my beanbag chair by my window and listened to it.. uhh, yeah. Loved it. I'll post one song a day from that cd.. "Feels Like Home"

Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life
If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
A window breaks, down a long, dark street
And a siren wails in the night
But I'm alright, 'cause I have you here with me
And I can almost see, through the dark there is light
Well, if you knew how much this moment means to me
And how long I've waited for your touch
And if you knew how happy you are making me
I never thought that I'd love anyone so much
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way the back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

It's a sweet, sweet rush.. I'm in love with your kiss..

Blondie3535: i'll laugh when he tells me she's pregnant
ClearAsCrystal44: i don't no... i'm not one for boyfriends spending the night at girlfriend's houses
Blondie3535: then i'll look at him and say, look at this life you've made for yourself. i hope you're happy.
ClearAsCrystal44: i'm glad its not you
Blondie3535: yeah, i kind of am too
Blondie3535: as much as i would love him to love me
Blondie3535: i'm glad it's not me
ClearAsCrystal44: sorry, i know you care about him.. but i don't want you in that situation... ever .. unless your very much married

Well, Mere, it isn't me. It's been almost a year since I've seen him last. This song kind of applies. Here's to a year and a half.

Baby when I look at you
You know it breaks my heart in two
How beautiful you are
I've seen you in a million dreams
Now you're finally here with me
We will never be apart
I wanna hold you forever
That's all I'll ever need

You are my love
You are my life
My heart and soul
The truest friend I've ever known
You are my world
All of my dreams
My fantasy, my reality
I love everything you are

Every time I close my eyes
It hits me so deep inside
How real this feeling is
I'm intoxicated by your touch
It's a sweet, sweet rush
I'm in love with your kiss
You're the one I trust the most
You changed me

You are my love
You are my life
My heart and soul
The truest friend i've ever known
You are my world
All of my dreams
My fantasy, my reality
I love everything you are

Everything, I love everything you are

Maybe you'll be the one that saves me..

Hey everyone.. well today was sufficiently boring. I wrapped presents this morning (which always puts me in a Christmas mood) and went to Wal-Mart in the afternoon to get a whole bunch of candy for the party. Dad and Sarah left at 6 for her work Christmas party.. I gave Evan a bath and got soaked! He was so funny. "Abby, pimmin' (swimming).. pot pub (hot tub)." He threw bubbles all over the place. It was funny.. I love that little kid. I fed him dinner and then put him in bed. And I've watched three Christmas movies today.. Dropping off and picking up.. st. nick (I think that's what it was called).. and snow. Ahh, Christmas. I love it. :) Ooh, I finished everyone's presents tonight.. yay, I hope you all like them. Ok, my stomach is growling, so I'm going to go eat dinner, clean the bathroom, and tidy up the downstairs. G'night, everyone..

This song so applies.. sexes switched, of course.

She rolls the window down
And she talks over the sound
Of the cars that pass us by
And I don't know why
But she's changed my mind

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

She was the one to hold me
The night
The sky fell down
And what was I thinking when
The world didn't end
Why didn't I know what I know now

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

Right now
Face to face
All my fears
Pushed aside
And right now
I'm ready to spend the rest of my life
With you

Would you look at her
She looks at me
She's got me thinking about her constantly
But she don't know how I feel
And as she carries on without a doubt
I wonder if she's figured out
I'm crazy for this girl

I've learned that happiness on earth ain't just for high acheivers..

"The Thunder Rolls"
Three thirty in the morning,
Not a soul in sight,
The city’s lookin’ like a ghost town
On a moonless summer night.
Raindrops on the windshield,
There’s a storm moving in.
He’s headin’ back from somewhere
That he never should have been.
And the thunder rolls.
And the thunder rolls.

"Paper Angels"
Paper angels you're in my thoughts and prayers
No matter where you are right now remember God's right there
He's asking all of us to help take care
Of his paper angels everywhere

"I Need You"
You're the hope that moves me
To courage again
You're the love that rescues me
When the cold winds, rage
And it's so amazing
cause that's just how you are
And I can't turn back now
cause you've brought me too far

I need you like water
Like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy
From heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms
That carries me throughI need you
Oh yes I do

Those are two great songs. Ooh, how I wish you were all sitting here with me staring out into the beautiful sunset. I've never seen so many colors at one time in nature, it's just so beautiful.. I took a picture of it. :) I love things like that. Like star-gazing.. laying out in my backyard just staring up into the endless sky.. black with tiny flecks of white brilliance. I heard a story once.. a little boy said that stars were just holes poked in the floor of Heaven.. we get a glimpse of Heaven in the skies. It's so relaxing.. so off that schpiel, tonight I'm babysitting the little ones.. that'll be fun, Evan is so cute. :) I have to go do that in like, 10 minutes.. ooooh, I have ideas for everyone's Christmas presents, and I have most of everything.. all I have to do is get one more thing for everyone and make them pretty.. then it'll be all done! Haha I love Christmas time. Time of love, warmth, family, friends, joy, and memories.. what's better than that? And the snow.. ooh, the snow. Falling quietly to the ground to cover it in a soft blanket. The next day, little children run around, making snowmen, snow angels, snow balls, and having the time of their lives.

paper angels, you're in my thoughts and prayers..

hey guys.. yesterday was an ugh day.. I had to stay at school until 6 -- that was really annoying. and we had extra food and not enough food, and it was just bad, everything was so messed up. so we made some pizzas for everyone and kristin and i ordered a sub from anile's (thanks again to Joe for picking that up for us haha). We watched the musical people try to dance.. that was my entertainment for the day. And I felt really sick for a while, I went home, and went to bed at 7 and didn't get up till 6 this morning.. it was great. And today Erin and I went to hand out the new food and the candle order was wrong! I HATE THOSE FLIPPIN' MEMMI'S PEOPLE! They may have good food, but this will be try number three! Maybe I'm just over aggravated lately. I've been like that this week, but uhh, there may be a good reason for that..

don't know if i want you here tonight..

don't know if I want you here tonight
hope that I'll see the morning light
scared to learn to love someone that's new
even if I think it could be true
you make my mind seem to spin
you made me world turn within
I somehow feel alive

I wanna believe in love
now the door is closing
the scariest thing to me is that I think I hold the key

I really think I need you here tonight
help me see the darkness turn to light
every day the world would disappear
till one o'clock when this dreams end drew near
if losing you is losing me
without you near just what will be?
tell me that I'm crazy

sometimes I think I'd rather stay here with you
can I feel your heartbeart?
sometimes I think I'd rather stay here with you
can I feel your heartbeat?

well, today kind of ended at 10:30.. we had resource where we alphabatized the fundraiser orders.. and set everything up for our contest. then, I had lunch and now I'm graphic arts, where I am writing this, working on our newsletter, and finishing up the contest.. I get out of next block to bring all the fundraisers down to the cafeteria.. and then I'm here till six handing all the fundraisers out. I really hope everyone comes to get their stuff, because if they don't, the food will be going into our refrigerators. Tonight, I'm spending the night at Grammy's house because dad and Sarah are in Atlantic City (ugh, without me.) until tomorrow. Soo, yeah, I'm going to work on finishing up the contest. See y'all later!!

xoxo .. abby

do you think we'll meet in the sky?

cut and dry, I look into your eyes and oh,
make sure that I'm breathing
tell my heart to keep still
it's all that I feel inside
branded by the image of a face inside
and I can't help but want to drift away all in a daze
contently intense to memorize your lines
make sure that I'm breathing
tell my heart to keep still
it's all that I feel inside
what would I do when second
best leaves me still missing you?
I fade away when words are superfluous
catch some time to remind me of the way you feel
fade away when words are superfluous
catch some time to remind me of you
I've begun to find to love you is to miss you
miss you is to love you
how sweet it is to dance around underground
in endless possibilities
haunted by a kiss, I want to feel
make sure I'm still breathing
tell my heart to keep still
it's all that I feel inside
if we close our eyes at the same time
do you think we'll meet in the sky?
I have to go.

-e101
mmm, love that song.

baby's got those angel blue eyes..

angels pass by me when I look into your blue eyes
calling down the morning sunrise
the evening tide pulls to your blues
to sum it up all in one, I can't help but loving you
send shivers up my spine
barely breathing
can't imagine why
forces of a greater kind than I
ease into my midnight sky
to sum it up all in one, I can't help but loving you
clearer than sapphires dare to ring is my sigh waiting there in your eye
it's so beautiful, so beautiful like a dream
calling on midnight flying things
drop your kisses all down with the slightest of sounds
angel blue eyes
baby's got those angel blue eyes
calling down the morning sunrise
the evening tide pulls to your blues
to sum it up all in one, I can't help but loving you
reminder of finer things
so pure you were sure they would crumble and break
but so beautiful, so beautiful
you knew that they could not
perfect down to the last eyelash
with wishes attached to heartstrings at last
I can't remember, yeah, I shiver
I can't remember, yeah, I shiver

-element 101

can this be true, tell me can this be real?

Hey guys.. ergh, I should be painting Karly's room right now, but Sarah wouldn't let me go. So here I am, in my room, doing absolutely nothing. And I'm really bored. I may work on my scrapbook.. homecoming, new york, fun things like that. Or wrap Christmas presents.. the few that I have. Ok, song of the day, thanks to the radio..

Can this be true, tell me can this be real
How can I put into words what I feel
My life was complete, I thought I was whole
Why do I feel like I'm losing control
I never thought that love could feel like this
Then you changed my world with just one kiss
How can it be that right here with me
There's an angel, it's a miracle
Your love is like a river
Peaceful and deep
Your soul is like a secret
I look into your eyes
I know that it's true
God must have spent a little more time on you
In all of creation,
All things great and small
You are the one that surpasses them all
More precious than a diamond or pearl
They broke the mold when you came in this world
And I'm trying hard to figure out
Just how I ever did without
The warmth of your smile,
The heart of a child
That's deep inside and leaves me purified

-Abby R.B.

I always knew looking back at the tears would make me laugh..
But I never knew looking back at the laughs would make me cry..

Thanks for that one, Gracie, you loser because you weren't home this morning. Haha, I still love you anyway.. no one can ever understand the importance of our song, but you.. haha Austin Rutz will never know. ;)

So today was fun, Erin came with me. Ahhhh, our Abercrombie model.. GORGEOUS, but you stepped on his face! Mmm.. coffee and Cold Stone, can't get much better than that. Oh man, he had his shirt off.. ahh. Bee-yoo-tee-full. We so have bragging rights.. and my red tights, woohoo! But I didn't get shoes :( Boohoo.

PARTY RSVP's NEEDED ASAP! (wow, lots of abbreviatons in that sentence)

love .. abby

But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you

PARK CITY TOMORROW!

That'll be fun.. tradition! Must get ice cream and run into a black guy. :) Awesome time last year. Hmm.. movie night was tonight at Logan's.. we watched drum line.. that's an awesome movie, it makes me want to play the drums. Just the way the went against each other was awesome.. and an amazing beat.. ahh, I want to do it. Anyone up for teaching?

So here are today's songs.. provided by Lindsay (1st) and Anna (2nd)..

Winter snow is falling
Children laughing all around
Lights are turning on
Like a fairy tale come true
Sitting by the fire we made
You're answer when I prayed
I would find someone and
Baby, I found you

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is your more everyday
You saved my heart from being broken apart
You gave your love away
and I'm thankful everyday
For the gift

Watching as you slowly sleep
What I'd give if I could keep
Just this moment
If only time stood still
But the colors fade away
and the years will make us gray
But baby in my eyes
You'll still be beautiful

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more everyday
You saved my heart, from being broken apart
You gave your love away
and I'm thankful everyday
For the gift

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more everyday
You saved my heart from being broken apart
You gave your love away
I can't find the words to say
That I'm thankful everyday
For the gift


I hate the way you talk to me
I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry
I hate it when you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way
I don't hate you
Not even a little bit, not even at all

I hate the way you talk to me, because we know you shouldn't. I hate the way you're always right, even though I don't want to admit it. I hate the way you lie, but I believe you anyway. I hate it when you make me laugh, because I know I'll fall right back into that trap. I hate it when you're not around, because I miss that feeling. I hate the fact that you didn't call because I trusted you to. I hate the way I don't hate you because maybe if I do, it will make everything easier, but I can't.. not even a little bit, not even at all.

Anna, thanks. I'll try to listen to 'Dear Abby', but it'll be hard, it always is. Thanks for the song, it totally applies. Love you, plastic.

-Abby R. B.

and it was love..

True: IN BOLD False: NOT

001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more tv than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own lots of books. it's the nerd in me. :)
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
008. I've tried marijuana.
009. I've watched porn movies.
010. I have been in a threesome.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I believe honesty is the best policy.
013. I have acne free skin. oh, shut up Lindsay :P
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton. who?
015. I curse frequently
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been told I have a nice butt. haha Tyler in 7th grade..
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart.. well, Kendra beat me this year, so no.
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain more than you know :)
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now.
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I have fresh breath in the morning... uh, after i brush my teeth
030. I have semi-long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
o34. I shave my legs
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way that I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am sometimes pessimistic. who isn't?
042. I have mood swings.
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I think that I'm popular.
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my LJ!
058. I don't hate anyone.
059. I'm a pretty good dancer.
060. I don't think Mike Tyson raped Desiree Washington.
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone.
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I've rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not allergic to anything deadly.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I have tried alcohol before. just at Christmas.. no big deal.
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "SOUTH PARK" movie.
086. I have avoided assignments to be on Xanga or Livejournal.
087. When I was a kid I played "the birds and the bees" with a neighbor or chum.
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I love my best friend.
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
098. I have dated a close friend's ex.
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. Had a crush on somebody you have never met. it's Austin Rutz, it's Austin Rutz (sung to the tune of Carol of the Bells)
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. I'm obsessed with the tv show "Lost." it's the greatest!
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
114. I think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd.
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I don't change who I am for someone else.
120. My heart resides below my feet.
121. I am a Senior in High School.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have gastritis.
124. I have nothing better to do with my time.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Most people call me by my middle name.
127. I once stole a music stand
128. Pi confuses me.
129. I love NASCAR! no, but the rednecks in my youth group do haha :)
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week
132. I have mono.
132. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor.
134. I'm only wearing underwear.
135. I had more than one Thanksgiving dinner this year.
136. I've drove to a different state to see a band I like.
137. I am the most overanalytical person I know.
138. I believe in wasting time.
139. I don't listen to much music. uhh, quite the opposite.
140. I have a shoe fetish. oooo, Erin, our NEW YORK shoes.. hmph, I want them!
141. My favorite holiday isn't Christmas.
142. I prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.
143. I love sex
144. I wanna go home
145. I don't know what I would do without my friends.
146. Christmas threw up in my dorm room and I love it.
147. Friends is my favorite TV show.
148. I can touch my nose with my tongue

But I know that when summer came, I pushed you away

You can thank Lindsay for these next two songs.. she's the inspiration haha..

The snow is falling like I knew it would
Carolers are already singing
Last year is all that I can think about
Every time I hear sleigh bells ringing

But I know
That when summer came I pushed you away
I should have never let you go, no
Now all I'm really trying to say is

I want you to come home
I know that there won't be a Christmas without you
I miss you so much
You're all that I want
I know that there won't be a Christmas without you
I miss you, come home

I remember all the love we made
I miss you stocking on the fireplace
Underneath the mistletoe we stayed
'Twas a very special holiday

But I know
That when summer came I pushed you away
I should have never let you go, no
Now all I'm really trying to say is

I want you to come home
I know that there won't be a Christmas without you
I miss you so much
You're all that I want
I know that there won't be a Christmas without you
I miss you, come home

There's a fire that's burning in my heart tonight
There's no reason why we both should be alone
It's the night before Christmas
And I'm waiting here for you to come home, come


I really can't stay - Baby it's cold outside
I've got to go away - Baby it's cold outside
This evening has been - Been hoping that you'd drop in
So very nice - I'll hold your hands, they're just like ice
My mother will start to worry - Beautiful, what's your hurry
My father will be pacing the floor - Listen to the fireplace roar
So really I'd better scurry - Beautiful, please don't hurry well
Maybe just a half a drink more - Put some music on while I pour
The neighbors might think - Baby, it's bad out there
Say, what's in this drink - No cabs to be had out there
I wish I knew how - Your eyes are like starlight now
To break this spell - I'll take your hat, your hair looks swell
I ought to say no, no, no, sir - Mind if I move a little closer
At least I'm gonna say that I tried - What's the sense in hurting my pride
I really can't stay - Baby don't hold out
Ahh, but it's cold outside
C'mon baby
I simply must go - Baby, it's cold outside
The answer is no - Ooh baby, it's cold outside
This welcome has been - I'm lucky that you dropped in
So nice and warm - Look out the window at that storm
My sister will be suspicious - Man, your lips look so delicious
My brother will be there at the door - Waves upon a tropical shore
My maiden aunt's mind is vicious - Gosh your lips look delicious
Well maybe just a half a drink more - Never such a blizzard before
I've got to go home - Oh, baby, you'll freeze out there
Say, lend me your comb - It's up to your knees out there
You've really been grand - Your eyes are like starlight now
But don't you see - How can you do this thing to me
There's bound to be talk tomorrow - Making my life long sorrow
At least there will be plenty implied - If you caught pneumonia and died
I really can't stay - Get over that old out
Ahh, but it's cold outside
Baby it's cold outside

I wanna know how forever feels..

Well, another entry for today.. except I'm in graphic arts now.. and I absolutely love this song..

I wanna know how forever feels
Hey, I wanna know how forever feels
Girl, I wanna know how forever feels

I wanna know how forever feels.. I wanna know how forever feels.. I wanna know how forever feels.. I wanna know how forever feels.. I wanna know how forever feels..

There's never anything to do in this class. So you lucky few who choose to read this will have to suffer through my ongoing blabs. :) So Grace is making this awesome softball shirt. "Pretty in Pink, Wicked in Uniform" with this really awesome font.. it'll look really cool when it's all done.. and then she'll move onto another shirt. Haha and Anna just got asked if she was going out with Joe.. probably for the 90th time.. and she said no. Which could be changed, it should be changed and she knows that, but she's not going to make a move on it. Yet, anyways. Today I am wearing a pink sweater over my white button-up with my new Christmas necklace. :) So let's go over my list of things to do in the next week. Tonight I am going to see "A Christmas Carol" and then everyone that's going to the play is heading to Anile's. Tomorrow I am going to my Granny's and we're going birthday/Christmas shopping for my mom.. and then at night, we are going to see Sam's play.. which is, once again, "A Christmas Carol." He's Tiny Tim. Aww, so cute, that should be fun. On Sunday, Aunt Michelle and Mom are going to be the guest's of honor at a birthday dinner held at 4719 Ballanger Creek Pike in Maryland.. yeah, it's at Granny's house. I get to miss play practice at church! Wahoo! :) I've really started to not like that play.. my brother is so obnoxious it's not even funny.. and when he gets with Doug, it's even worse. But then I guess it's better than sitting out in the sanctuary.. because that's really annoying.. most of you know why. So I'll be home sometime Sunday night. On Monday, there is young life, but other than that I don't think I'm doing much of anything.. Happy Birthday, Aaron! Tuesday, I'm going to my my church Christmas party.. and Happy Birthday, Courtney! You get your braces off! On Wednesday, in the morning, Courtney and I are going to the cafe for her birthday and there's youth group, but other than that, I don't think there is anything else.. Thursday, I want to go shopping for Grace's Christmas present (there, happy now? haha).. but REALLY, I don't think I'm doing anything.. again. Wow, I have a really boring life. Friday, I am babysitting the two boys to make some Christmas money to buy presents for all of my lovely friends.. and Anna (the Plastic). Oookay, I need to get off of here so that Grace can get on and print out her lovely, lovely shirt. Fortunate for you, my blog is ending here.. and not going on for another half an hour..

x's and o's .. abby

Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, Merry Christmas, and Happy Holidays

Hey guys.. It's Christmas time!!! And I am soooo excited! Haha tonight I'm going to the play.. and then to Anile's.. yay, I'm excited! Just took a science test.. yeah, failed that. Thank heaven for retakes. :) I will definitely be taking advantage of that.. because I uhh, yeah.. didn't know half of the words that were on the test.. oops. Ok, Sarah, I don't like her and her notebook. It gave me a really bad paper cut on the fold of my thumb and it really really really hurts. Not cool. Alright, well resource is over in ten minutes, and I have some things to write..

To the most amazing person ever.. what would I do without you? You're always there when I need a hand and you can always make me smile without saying a word. You are the best thing that ever happened to me. :) I love you.

xoxo .. abby

If you kissed me now, I know you'd fool me again..

Merry Christmas!!! Well, in 24 days.. but I can't wait. It will be the best 24 days of my life :)

CHRISTMAS PARTY at my house on the 23rd from 7-10:30.. Andrew, Lauren, Tim, Kendra, Courtney, Ali, Tori, Erin, Grace, Sarah, Kristin, Autumn, Mere, Emily, Rachel, Lindsay, Logan, Austin, Spencer, Sean, Jon, Nick, and Brianne..

Check your e-mail because I sent most of you invitations through there.. and if I didn't, I don't have your e-mail address.. well, I'll just talk to you all in school tomorrow..

El, I still think you should come "chaperone". You can't tell me that you wouldn't have a blast sitting there laughing at all of us stupid freshman. What if I invite Merlie, then would you come? Maybe, please? Haha I think you'd have a blast under that mistletoe :-D

Oh, and I'll put this out there to you guys.. the play on Friday night at 7:30 and then Anile's afterwards with the cast (Mere, Emily, Kristin, Lauren) and others (me and anyone else who wants to go)..

Gotta go, I'll see y'all tomorrow..

White Christmas and I'm blue
Like fireworks with no fuse
Christmas without you
The fireplace keeps burning and my thoughts keep turning
The pages of memories of time spent with you
Old Christmas songs we knew and used to make love to
Make it hard to get used to
Christmas without you

Christmas without you
White Christmas and I'm blue
I love you
I miss you
So sad but so true
Christmas without you

Like a mystery with no clues
Like fireworks with no fuse
Christmas without you
The sweetest gift I know would be if the new snow
Could fall on your footsteps on this Christmas eve
The most joyous Christmas if luck could be with us
Would be if Saint Nicholas brought you home to me