If I could turn back time..

Well, I've successfully finished two whole days of high school haha.. without getting too lost (haha Elliot). It's been a pretty interesting day. Well, all was boring.. especially graphic arts with Mr. Heiser.. oh. my. gosh. I thought that I was going to fall asleep.. I think the only thing that kept me awake was Spisak grabbing my arm because she kept losing when she was playinig Gulp! on Grace's palm pilot haha. Yeah, I lost all the time too, it's not as easy as it looks, I'm telling you! Then, at the end of the day, Lindsay saw Jon getting his work, so we had to wait for him.. which made us late.. which made the coaches way grumpy. Our two laps were "sloppy", so we had to run another one. After that, it wasn't too bad.. it was horrible for me, Autumn and Lindsay because we like sprinted from the high school to the middle school.. and then from the middle school down to the field.. and then ran three laps. Ugh. Oh well, I'm over it. Well, this song has kind of been playing in the background of my head all day, so here you go:

If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that hurt you and you'd stay
I don't know why I did the things I did
I don't know why I said the things I said
Pride's like a knife it can cut deep inside
Words are like weapons they wound sometimes.
I didn't really mean to hurt you
I didn't wanna see you go
I know I made you cry, but baby

If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that hurt you
And you'd stay
If I could reach the stars
I'd give them all to you
Then you'd love me, love me
Like you used to do
If I could turn back time

My world was shattered
I was torn apart
Like someone took a knife and drove it deep in my heart
You walked out that door I swore that I didn't care
But I lost everything darling then and there

Too strong to tell you I was sorry
Too proud to tell you I was wrong
I know that I was blind, and ooh...

If I could turn back time
If I could turn back time
If I could turn back time, ooh baby
I didn't really mean to hurt you
I didn't want to see you go
I know I made you cry

If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
I'd take back those words that hurt you
If I could reach the stars
I'd give them all to you
Then you'd love me, love me
Like you used to do

If I could turn back time
If I could find a way
Then baby, maybe, maybe
You'd stay

Reach the stars
If I could reach the stars

Hands down, this is the best day I can ever remember..

Well, today was the first day of high school.. stressful. I decided that I don't like the whole 80 minute classes, I can't sit that long.. it's way toooo long. But, I guess that I will have to get over that, huh? Oh well, it'll be a fun year, besides Basic Foods, but that's a long story, so I'm not getting into that right now. Elliot, no more making fun of me, alright? :-P And Aaron, just 'cuz I'm a freshman, you're gonna ignore me? Psh. Haha, oh we'll have fun. Alright, well, I'm going to go work on my homework.. ugh, who does that? Morons. See you tomorrow!

Love always .. abby

She thinks she needs me..

I absolutely love this song.. it's so sweet.

she thinks i walk on water
she thinks i hung the moon
she tells me every mornin'
they just don't make men like you
she thinks i've got it together
she swears i'm as tough as nails
but i dont have the heart to tell her
that she dont know me that well
she dont know how much i need her
she dont know i'd fall apart
without her kiss
without her touch
without her faithful lovin arms s
he dont know that its all about her
she dont know i cant live without her
she's my world
she's my everything
and she thinks she needs me
sometimes she cries on my shoulder
when she's layin' next to me
but she dont know that when i hold her
that she's really holdin' me
she dont know how much i need her
she dont know i'd fall apart
without her kiss
without her touch
without her faithful lovin arms
she dont know that its all about her
she dont know i cant live without her
she's my world she's my everything
and she thinks she needs me
yea now the funny thing is
she thinks she's the lucky one
she dont know how much i need her
she dont know i'd fall apart
without her kiss
without her touch
without her faithful lovin arms
she dont know that its all about her
she dont know i cant live without her
she's my world
she's my everything
and she thinks she needs me

How can I forget you girl when there's always something there to remind me?

I WANT A DAWSON!!!! And I love this song..

Sick and tired of this world
There's no more air
Trippin' over myself
Goin' nowhere
Waiting
Suffocating
No direction
And I took a dive

And on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
Almost fell right through
But I held onto you

I've been wondering why
It's only me
Have you always been inside
Waiting to breathe
It's alright
Sunlight
On my face
I wake up and yeah

I'm alive 'cause on the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
Almost fell right through
But I held onto you

I was so afraid
Of going under
But now
The weight of the world
Feels like nothing, no, nothing
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
Down, down, down
You're all I needed
Down, down, down
You're all I wanted
You're all I needed
And I won't forget the way you loved me
All that I wanted
All that I needed

On the way down
I saw you
And you saved me
From myself
And I won't forget
The way you loved me
On the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held onto you

My heart is yours to fill or burst..

Good evening, everyone. I'm really tired, but I don't really want to go to bed. Honestly, I don't know if I can.. I may have a dream like Matt's.. I come so close, but I don't say anything. Or when I do, reality jolts me awake and I realize how much I'm missing. I know that it's there, it's just not mine for the taking. It's hers and that is something that I am having a hard time dealing with. I come so close, but then I back away in fear of getting pushed away, or in fear of knowing that to him, I'm inferior to her. Oh, I don't know. I like these songs..

I need you Jesus
To come to my rescue
Where else can I go?
There's no other name
By which I am saved
Capture me with grace
I will follow you

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me
So won't you kill me, so I die happy
My heart is yours, to fill or burst
To break or bury, or wear as jewelry
Whichever you prefer

i love you ... abby

I need you more than ever now..

Hey guys.. school starts in less than a week! A WEEK! Wow, summer is never long enough. I don't really have much to talk about here, but I'm watching vh1 top 20 countdown and dawson's creek and I really like the music that they are playing.. yep.
And I never felt a feeling like the one I felt today. I need you more than ever now. Why don't we go somewhere only we know?

I love you .. abby

Oooo, I wanna dance with somebody..

Hey all, how's it going? Not too bad here. Hockey's been going on, the same old stuff. No joke.. dodges, ahh, boring. Oh well, nothing I can do here. I'm so in the mood for dancing, I don't know what it is. Something inside of me is saying, "Go find some people, an empty room, crank up the dancing music, and start moving," but the other part of me is saying, "Why do you want to dance? It's so adolescent, what's with you?" Right now, I don't want to be grown up, I don't want to follow the rules, I want to dance. And after I dance, I want to move to Tuscany.. or London.. or Venice.. or Paris. Anywhere, I just want to get up and go. Problems: 1) Money. 2) Transportation. 3) No one would come with me. 4) I don't speak Italian, I don't speak enough French, but thank goodness for those Brits. I DO speak English :) So yep, I'm stuck here dreaming, but boy is it a good dream.

I love you .. Abby

Ooo, I wanna dance with somebody!

Did you ever love somebody even though it hurt to?

Good afternoon everyone.. well, today has been quite a day so far.. Sarah said that I could have 8 people over tonight.. but everyone that I was going to have over is already going to Spencer's and Lindsay didn't tell me about him having it tonight. So now I can have a party, but no one to ask. If anyone wants to come over, let me know and you're more than welcome to. Oh, hey, I heard this song on Dawson's Creek yesterday, and I like it, so I'm going to put it in here..

Did you ever love somebody
So much that the earth moved?
Did you ever love somebody
Even though it hurt to?
Did you ever love somebody
Nothing else your heart could do?
Did you ever love somebody
Who never knew?
Did you ever lay your shoulder down
On the shoulder of a good friend
And then had to look away somehow?
Had to hide the way you felt for them?
Have you ever prayed the day would come
You'd hear them say they feel it too
Did you ever love someone?
Who never knew?
I do.
And if you did
Well you know I'd understand
I could, I would
More than anybody can
Did you ever love somebody
So much that the earth moved?
Did you ever love somebody
Even though it hurt to?
Did you ever love somebody
Nothing else your heart could do?
Did you ever love somebody
Like I love you?

I love you ... Abby

The hassle of all the screaming fits..

Good morning, everyone, how are you? I'm great, I just watched the interview with Carly Patterson after she won the gold medal thanks to her spectacular floor routine last night. Her strongest event is the beam and she nailed that, too. She's just amazing. They showed her after her floor routine, she came off the floor and her coach picked her up and carried her around and she started crying because she had won the gold. She beat that anorexic looking girl from Romania or something, so that's good. Today, I've got nothing planned, if you want to do anything, that would be awesome. I'm free today until 6, that's when I go to hockey.. and that's until 8. Okay, well I'm going to go eat breakfast, so I will talk to you later, bye!

I love you ... Abby

I'd give anything to be your everything again..

Good morning everyone.. today is the only day this week without hockey :) and I'm loving it. I have to go back tomorrow night and then I go to Colonel Livingston's for dinner and to celebrate Pepere's birthday. That'll be pretty fun. This is going to be really short, because je vais aller a la marchand de fruits pour des fruits (go figure.), so I'll be back in a little while. I love you all, you're my world.

abby

If I could tell the world just one thing
It would be that we're all OK
And not to worry 'cause worry is wasteful
And useless in times like these
I won't be made useless
I won't be idle with despair
I will gather myself around my faith
For light does the darkness most fear
My hands are small, I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
Poverty stole your golden shoes
It didn't steal your laughter
And heartache came to visit me
But I knew it wasn't ever after
We'll fight, not out of spite
For someone must stand up for what's right
'Cause where there's a man who has no voice
There ours shall go singing
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
I am never brokenIn the end only kindness matters
In the end only kindness matters
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
I will get down on my knees, and I will pray
My hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never brokenMy hands are small I know
But they're not yours, they are my own
But they're not yours, they are my own
And I am never broken
We are never broken
We are God's eyes
God's hands
God's mind

When you let go, my heart breaks..

Walking down the hall
Past frozen smiles
Planted on
From years of heartache
Trying to smile
As they walk on by
No one seems to see
The tears behind my eyes
Strange how someone
So close
Can't see
What happens
When he walks right
Past me
Planted on
From years of heartache
Everytime we touch
My heart breaks
Into a million pieces
Trying to pick them up
Tape them together
Once again
Planted on
From years of heartache
When you let go
My heart breaks
-Mere :) haha I love it!

Couldn't you see that I want by the way I pushed you away?

Hey guys.. so today was the first day of preseason.. the first hour and a half weren't bad, but I don't know how the rest of the gat went. I had a really high fever so I went home.. the good thing is that Coach Lawrence said she'd give me an extra day to make up for today, so that's always good. Well, sorry this is super short, but I'm needed downstairs, so I'll talk to you all later, bye!

Love always,
Abby

It's been said that promises are meant to be broken..

Hey everyone! Well, this morning Lindsay and I went for a run. Blah. Major cramps, they're killing me here! And she asked me to go to Park City with her, but Dad wouldn't let me because I didn't go running yesterday.. oh well, guess I deserved that. Now, I'm sitting here, bored. Nothing to do at home.. Grammy gets home from the beach tomorrow. Guess what. She's going to the BAHAMAS in November and CONSIDERING taking me with her! How awesome is that? I doubt I'll be able to go because that would be "unfair to the rest of the grandkids." But it's worth a shot, huh? I'm in an arsty mood. I want to go take pictures of.. something, I don't know. Anything. Or paint. I could paint something. But what? Hmm.. maybe later. I want to finish my room. Just in case you've been thinking about what to get me for my birthday, I want gift certificates to: Pier 1, Linens-N-Things, Dick's, Barnes and Noble (or Borders), Panera, American Eagle.. and any other place you think I would like. Oh wait, Lindsay called, gotta check the weather for her. Alright, I'm back. Haha she's in Limited Too with her sisters and Sam. I feel so bad for her.. I wish I were there with her, we'd be like.. in Abercrombie.. or Hollister or something. Alright, I'm gonna go do something, so I don't die of boredom. If anyone wants to do anything, let me know. I'll ttyl, bye!!!

Love you!
Abby

It's days like these you realize your head isn't on straight..

Hey all! Yeah, still working on that long letter I promised you all, but it's in the works. It's coming together.. a little slowly.. but I'll have it on here by Friday, I hope. Speaking of Friday, sorry Jon, sorry Emily, I can't go to either. I think I'm going to Big Spring to watch my cousin's band concert/dinner thing. If I don't do that, I have to go to a camp fire at Camp Thompson to pick up my brother from his camp. So today has been pretty boring.. ONE WEEK UNTIL PRESEASON. Ahh, so not ready.. I told Lindsay that she has to come over here to go running with me.. seriously, she does.. or else we're both going to die. But I HATE running.. just like Autumn said on Friday night when she was over: "I don't like any kind of running.." Amen to that. Yeah.. no one is on right now.. I think tomorrow I want to go to the pool, but I don't really know how that's going to work out. Well, I'm leaving now, because I'm bored.. so uhh.. bye!

Lindsay, call me if you want to go running!!!

Love always,
abby :*

Follow your heart.. it will lead you in the right direction..

One more day of hockey camp.. and then a week and 3 days of relaxation.. and then I die. This is going to suck. Well, next week, I guess I'm not going to sit on my butt and do nothing becausethen I would REALLY die during preseason.. so I'll have to run next week so that I kind of am in running shape.. then the cross country trail won't be as bad. Today, I did the crab walk, somersaults (they KILLED my back!), and cartwheels.. but then we had payback haha. Everyone is even now :) Hmm.. I am so excited for the football games.. those are always the best. Our first game is against Big Spring, which is cool, because 1) Stevie plays for Big Spring, 2) We'll kill them and 3) Brett's playing in the band.. so that will be awesome.. I'm excited already! Then we play Big Spring in hockey a few days later.. so that'll be fun.. triple dose of Bubbler beatings, I hope. Oh, I read this today and I liked it.. so I'm putting it in here..

If it's really over, there's nothing I can say
I'll do my best to hide the pain and turn and walk away
But do me one last favor and pretend you're hurting too
After all we've been through, it's the least thing you can do

Alright, well I'm all chloriney from being in the pool all afternoon.. so I'm going to get another shower and I will see some of you tomorrow at hockey and I'll talk to the rest of you later.. Love you!

- Abby

I hope you have the chance to live like you're dying..

Hey guys.. how is everyone? This week is hockey camp at the school.. it's going pretty well, but I hate playing defense.. I suck.. more than usual. Haha and it's so hot.. but we'll all get used to that.. in two weeks preseason starts.. and that is going to suck. REALLY suck. They don't call it "Hell Week" for nothing.. I'm soo nervous.. I hope they don't cut people.. that would be awesome! So I read this really cool little.. thing.. I don't really know what it is.. just a letter, I guess. But I really like it, so I think I'm going to put it in here tomorrow. It really makes you think about some things, I have to edit and add, but it will be awesome after I'm done with it. It's long, but it makes for some good reading. :) Ok, well I think I am going to go.. I will talk to you all later.. I love you!

.. arb ..

I almost fell right through, but I held on to you..

Hey all! Well.. yesterday I went to Hershey Park with Dad, Sarah, Tyler, Courtney, and Greg.. it was fun up until I passed out and then my shoes got stolen. It was a really weird day.. :\ And today, church was at Trine Park.. Evan got another fever, so we came home.. and here I am. I don't have much to say because not a whole lot happened.. and my heads kind of up in space..

WALK FOR LIFE!! IF YOU ARE INTERESTED, LET ME KNOW!!!

On the way down
I saw you, and you saved me from myself
And I won't forget the way you loved me
And on the way down
I almost fell right through
But I held on to you