Glory, glory, hallelujah, he reigns..

I absolutely LOVE this song..

Crazy Mary is a slow girl who looks up to no one.
Would do anything for a cold one.
Wishes she could find her way home.
Got the look on her face and the stare of a ray gun.
We walked by everyday
and I wish there was something I could do for her.

Maybe if I took a little time to talk then she'd heal a little if she wants to.
She can run but let's teach her how to walk away now.
I'll shake a little if she wants to she'll laugh a little if she needs to.
There's a key to the door that she's hiding behind.

She watches the world pass her by like a freight train.
They all call her the same name.
Laughin' as they point and stare at her.
So she crys out to God up in Heaven,
been prayin since she was 11.
For Him to send someone to meet her there.

Maybe if I took a little time to talk then she'd heal a little if she wants to.
She can run but let's teach her how to walk away now.
I'll shake a little if she wants to she'll laugh a little if she needs to.
There's a key to the door that she's hiding behind.

And no one knows the thoughts, the dreams,and the ideas she's got and contains inside.
She's broken apartand her heart is still lookin for somewhere to feel alright.
And no one knows the thoughts, the dreams,and the ideas she's got andcontains inside.
She's broken apartand her heart is still lookin for somewhere to feel alright.

Maybe if I took a little time to talk then she'd heal a little if she wants to.
She can run but let's teach her how to walk away now.
I'll shake a little if she wants to she'll laugh a little if she needs to.
There's a key to the door that she's hiding behind.

  love ... arb

It seems worth the wait to see you smile..

Hey everyone! So yesterday, I was talking to a very wise person and I said that when I get mad, I have been given the oppurtunity to be mean. But that very wise person said, "No, you are given the right to say or do something stupid that only makes matters worse." I realized that I tend to do that.. a lot. Love and appreciate the time that you spent together. Stop thinking about what could have been. She said life could be so simple if people learned to pray. I love you. Those three words have my life in them. I'd like to run away from you, but if you didn't come to find me, I would die. The best feelings are those that have no words to describe them. Your voice makes me tremble inside and your smile is an invitation for my imagination to run wild. She talks just like a woman, loves just like a woman, she aches just like a woman, but she breaks just like a little girl. Please tell me you're just feeling tired.. cause if it's more than that I feel that I might break.. I'll wait until tomorrow.. Maybe you'll feel better then.. It seems worth the while to see you smile.. So quiet, exhale.. Another wasted breath.. Again it goes unnoticed. The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return. Once in a while, in the middle of ordinary life, love gives you a fairy tale. When you love someone, all your saved up wishes start coming out.  Time passes slowly and memories fade, but the vision of my love holds true to this day. I wish that there weren't people like you. I wish all angels could be true. If your wishes wouldn't die, or if your heart couldn't lie, if maybe you wouldn't cry, then you could let your soul begin to fly. Give up, it doesn't get better. I would know, I've been wishing forever. What is love? Is it something I once knew? I always thought love was me and you.  Wishes, wishes, they don't come true. Wishing on wishes to be with you. So that's it for now.. I've got to go print out a picture for Lindsay and then I'm off to my mom's.. maybe I'll write more when I'm there. See ya!

   Love always .. abby

Giving everything for love, I'm finding out it's not enough..

I know that they are just trying to protect me, but I don't need it. I don't need people telling me what to do, where to go, who to be, and how to feel. I can do things on my own, choose where I'm going on my own, I can be my own person, and I certainly can feel on my own.. I've been doing that for quite a while. Yeah, sometimes, I do get hurt, but if I didn't, I wouldn't know what true love is. Sometimes when you fall in love, you fall too hard. And when you fall hard, you hit the ground and sometimes, it's so hard for you to get up. Ugh, guys, I'm trying.. but to no avail. :\ Just keep trying..

we never talked about it
because you never even cared
and what you really wanted
i never even had

because what may seem right
and what may be wrong
seems out of sight
in this place we belong
giving everything

giving everything for love
I'm finding out that it's not enough
there's nothing left between you and I
I'm finding faith but losing us
where worlds collide

together we seemed perfect
a fairy tale for show
and looking on the outside
you'd never even know

that we're just not right
when compromise is wrong
seems out of sight
in this place we belong
giving everything

  

Look for the girl with the broken smile..

Hey guys.. not much has been going on here.. I haven't really done much of anything this summer.. so I've had plenty of time to think about everything and I've realized that nothing is going my way. It's like nothing ever happened, like I never mattered, everything is just.. fine. But I'm tired of everything being fine. I want to stand out, to be more than just a memory. I want to be real, but he's already got that I guess. Well, while I'm trying to save my world  from crashing in, I heard this song today:
 
Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
 
I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow I want more
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
 
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
 
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
 
I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
 
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
 
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
 
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye
 
Love always .. abby
 
 

Here's my hand if you fall..

Hey guys. These past few days have been, well, interesting. My mom got into her house last night, but I think that will change when he realizes that she was there. And some more great news on my mom's side of the family.. Josh. Last Monday, he got sentenced to 5 years in prison. He served one last year after it happened.. so he has 4 left. You know how much he's going to miss? Bill's graduation, my graduation, Aunt Michelle's graduation, Mike's graduation. 4 years is a long time. And he's not in one of those local 10-person jails.. he's in the state prison. No more dealing with the little guys.. he's moving on up to the big one. I don't know what to do. I'm trying so hard to take all of this is, but sometime's I feel like it's too much. No, I always feel like it's too much. He's my cousin! I can't take this anymore.. I don't know what I did to put myself into this hole. I feel like the whole world is crashing down on me and I am not strong enough to stay standing. I gotta go get ready for tonight.. I have to keep myself busy.

We were each on a single stilt wavering in the wind..

Oh yeah.. here's another song.

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I've found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby

You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything thing I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me.
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

For all those times you stood by me..

Hmph.. I just talked to my mom.. and things aren't looking up at all. :\ I can't get into it now, though. I don't know how things are going to look like in a month or two. Maybe at Pepere's or maybe in an apartment. I don't know. Well, here are two songs that have been on my mind lately..

i love you with all my heart .. abby

Whose eyes am I behind?
I don't recognize anything that I see
Whose skin is this design?
I don't want this to be the way that you see me

I don't understand anything anymore
And this web that I'm tired of
Is taking me right up these walls
That I climb up to get to your story
It's anything but ordinary

And when the world is on its knees with me
It's fine
And when I come to the rescue
I get nothing but left behind
Everybody seems to be getting what they need
Where's mine?
'Cause you're what I need so badly
But I'm anything but ordinary

Can you save me from this world of mine?
Before I get myself arrested with this expectation
You are the one, look what you've done
What have you done?
This is not some kind of joke, you're just a kid
You weren't ready for what you did, no . . .

And when the world is on its knees with me
It's fine
And when I come to the rescue
I do it for you time after time
Everybody seems to be getting what they need
Where's mine?
'Cause you're what I need so badly
But I'm anything but ordinary

I think I'm trying to save the world for you
You've been saving me too
We could just stay in and save each other

I'm anything but ordinary..
I'm anything but ordinary..

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They read you Cinderella; you hoped it would come true.
That one day your Prince Charming would come rescue you.
You like romantic movies; you never will forget.
The way you felt when Romeo kissed Juliet.
All this time that you've been waiting;
You don't have to wait no more.

I can love you like that. I would make you my world:
Move Heaven and Earth, if you were my girl.
I will give you my heart, be all that you need;
Show you you're everything that's precious to me.
If you give me a chance: I can love you like that.

I'd never make a promise I don't intend to keep.
So when I say forever, forever's what I mean.
I'm no Casanova, but I swear this much is true:
I'll be holding nothing back, when it comes to you.
You dream of love that's everlasting.
Well, baby, open up your eyes:

I can love you like that. I would make you my world:
Move Heaven and Earth, if you were my girl.
I will give you my heart, be all that you need;
Show you you're everything that's precious to me.
If you give me a chance: I can love you like that.

You want tenderness;
I've got tenderness,
And I see through to the heart of you.
If you want a man who understands,
You don't have to look very far.

I can love you; I can:
I can love you like that. I would make you my world:
Move Heaven and Earth, if you were my girl.
I will give you my heart, be all that you need;
Show you you're everything that's precious to me.

I can love you like that. I would make you my world:
Move Heaven and Earth, if you were my girl.
I will give you my heart, be all that you need;
Show you you're everything that's precious to me.

I can love you like that. I would make you my world:
Move Heaven and Earth, if you were my girl.
I will give you my heart, be all that you need;

As our lives change.. come whatever.. we will still be.. friends forever.

Hey all! I haven't written in here for a while. I left for the Pocono's on Friday morning..and we hung out at the pool all day. We went to Red Lobster for dinner. The next day, we went to the Raceway so that Pappy Ralph could race the stock car..we were there until 2ish. On our way home we saw this guy get hit by a car and Nan got out and helped the guy. His arms were broken.. on one arm his muscles were hanging on the ground and the other one just had cuts the WHOLE way up his arm. His leg was broken.. it was bent so weird.. his foot was like, backwards. It was gross, but the only thing that saved his life was his helmet. We went back to the hotel and then went to Lonestar for dinner. On Sunday, we went swimming and on our way home, we stopped at TGI Friday's..and then Bruster's, but not Cold Stone. :( I came home and went to Kristin's..we played manhunt and I had to chase Andrew up a tree without falling down..which was hard, but I did it! Haha, it was fun.. and I taught everyone how to play A-hole..or Crap (thanks to Lindsay and Kristin). Then we played American Idol.. and then we watched Aladdin! LINDSAY, HE IS SO MINE! Or I could have Eric.. or Phillip. One of those three. Haha we are so doing that for Halloween. Ok, well it's lunchtime..I'll talk to you all later, I love you!

-abby

ps lindsay.. she's human! cpooch! haha

I hate when things are over.. When so much is left undone..

Hey guys! Today has been pretty uneventful. My brother is being a brat with Mark and Grammy is about ready to smack them all. She unplugged the tv as punishment and when she left, they plugged it right back in. Stupid. But whatever. Hmph. Two years. I'm talking to Meredith and she's depressing me. In two years, Aaron will be gone. But that's okay..we'll go visit him at Messiah..because that isn't too far away at all. Aww..Aaron's my buddy..and he claps loud..but that's okay..me and Mere sing loud :) Ok, well this is cool..check it out.

You say we've got nothing in common
No common ground to start from
And we're falling apart
You say the world has come between us
Our lives have come between us
But I know you just don't care

I see you, the only one who knew me
But now your eyes see through me
I guess I was wrong
So what now? It's plain to see we're over
I hate when things are over
When so much is left undone

love always .. abby

Once upon a broken heart.. I was walking alone in the dark..

Hey all! How are you? Well, today was pretty good. I went swimming for 3 hours, got a shower, went to see Shrek 2 with Lauren, Brianne, Kristin, Emily, Sarah, and Kendra, and then I came home. Since then, I've been doing absolutely nothing, but I'm ok with that. I'm kinda tired though and my back is killing me, but that's not really anything new. Now, I'm singing Christmas songs to Kendra. Oh, I like this little quote thing

Once in a while,
In the middle of ordinary life,
Love gives us a fairy tale.

I just thought that was cute. Ok, well I don't really have much to say. Ok, we're not going swimming. Me, Peter, Kendra, and Stevie..we're not going swimming and I have to say, I'm okay with that. I'd wear my skiing outfit anyways. Aniles? Cafe? Lake? Hmm.. probably. Alright, well I'm done babbling for one night..I'll talk to y'all later. Bye!

love always,
abby

I see your true color shining through..

Hey everyone! Tonight was fun..I went over to Matt's house, but they were still eating dinner..I felt like such an idiot. But that's ok..then I went up to Matt's room and he played the guitar for like 3 hours..it was a lot of fun..he's really good! Eww, but then he threw his bloody pick at me..it was soooo gross! Bleh..but then I like fell asleep..I was really tired and he was playing Aubrey and it was so quiet, I just like slowly started to fall asleep..and then he put on an Anti-Flag song..it was so loud! After that, he put on that stupid BIRD song..I thought I was going to die..haha and I broke his guitar that his mom wanted him to keep..that was funny. I forgot to give Matt Jr. back before I left..and I have another one of his necklaces too. When I left, everyone else got there (thanks Adam). Marshall was like, "Hi Abby, bye Abby!" Erg..that was annoying, but that's ok..Odie, Tiki, and Moe LOVE ME!!! Haha then I came home, watched Save the Last Dance and ate some cookie dough..and now here I am.

I see your true color shining through
I see your true color, that's why I love you
I see your true color shining through
I see your true color, that's why I love you

It was a cute movie..ok, well I'm really tired and my back is killing me..so I'll see you all in the morning, g'night!

love ... abby

And now I know what a fool I've been, but if you kissed me now, I know you'd fool me again..

Why, hello everyone. So last night, I didn't see Pete, Tim or Mike. Haha no family reunion, but that's ok..I thought that we were going to KIDS camp, but we went to YOUTH camp..that's why I didn't see any of them. Haha but while we were there this guy sitting across the aisle from us kept staring at me and Steph..haha it was really scary. =O And on the way there, Julie's like, "Amber isn't a virgin," and I'm like, "Well, I'm not either." But I meant to say that I was..yeah, so came out wrong. Candy was like, "EXCUSE ME?!?" Haha, oops. And today I went to Little Buffalo..and I fell asleep without and sun-tan lotion on and I REALLY got burnt..my legs, my back, my butt..ow. It hurts to sit down.

Blondie3535: EEEEEEEEEEEEEEK! ice is cold on my butt!
pixiemoe08: do you have any clothes on?!?
Blondie3535: no im running around the house naked
Blondie3535: =O

Haha..that was funny..so I'm sitting here talking to Kaila, Kate, and Kristin (heh KKK) and listening to Christmas music while watching Save the Last Dance. Girls can multi-task very well :-D Ok, well I'm gonna grab a sandwich or something little before I head over to the Clugh's for the night..that should be fun! I'll ttyl, bye!

love always ... abby