Accidently in love..

Hey all..last night was promo..that was so much fun! Haha and today was fun too. I got a bathing suit and then fried myself. Then we went and got beer and such for tonight and tomorrow. And were having a cookout shindig, and courtney should be coming over here any minute..so I'm gonna head downstairs to see if the foods ready. Talk to ya later, bye!

ilu ... abby

My boot-scootin' baby is drivin' me crazy..

Hey all! Today was a boring today. The spanish class had a final today..and then Mrs. Bohn's algebra class did..I'm so nervous to get that test back..I think I failed it. =O And then I got my nails done at VIP..they're ok. The girl did most of them crooked..Sarah could have done them better herself, but whatever. I might have her fix them tonight. Yeah..tonight is the powderpuff game..that should be cool. Pat's going to be a cheerleader..that will be HILARIOUS. Ok, I have the hiccups. :( Well, no one is on and I have to go find out when powderpuff is, so I'm gonna go..ttyl..bye!

ilu ... abby

My rodeo romeo, cowboy god from head to toe.

Well, I just got back from the guys lift-a-thon and dance. Wow, it was definitely worth it. Aaron Lee benched 190, Aaron Rutz benched umm..1 something..Austin Rutz is hott, and yeah..thats about it. Haha after everyone was done benching all the football players came out in their sexy cowboy hats. They got in four lines and started dancing to this song..

It's time to begin
Now count it in
5-6-7-8

My boot-scootin' baby is drivin' me crazy
My obsession from a western, my dance floor date
My rodeo romeo, a cowboy god from head to toe
Wanna make you mine, betta get in line
5-6-7-8

Root kickin', finger clickin'
Leather slappin', hand clappin'
Hip bumpin', music thumpin'
Knee hitchin', heel and toe

Floor scuffin', leg shufflin'
Big grinnin', body spinnin'
Rompin' stompin', pumpin' jumpin'
Slidin' glidin', here we go

My boot-scootin' baby is drivin' me crazy
My obsession from a western, my dance floor date
My rodeo romeo, a cowboy god from head to toe
Wanna make you mine, betta get in line
5-6-7-8

Tush pushin', thunder footin'
Cowgirl twistin', No resistin'
Drums bangin', steel twangin'
Two steppin', end to end

Hardwood crawlin', some four wallin'
Rug cuttin', cowboy struttin'
Burnin' yearnin', windin' grindin'
Let's begin the dance again

Oooo
You're mine, all mine now bubba
Gonna rope you in so count me in
5-6-7-8

My boot-scootin' baby is drivin' me crazy
My obsession from a western, my dance floor date
My rodeo romeo, a cowboy god from head to toe
Wanna make you mine, betta get in line
5-6-7-8


1. Megan and I decided that Austin Rutz would be a gorgeous cowboy.
2. Aaron Rutz can't dance.
3. Jeff didn't know what he was supposed to do.
4. Aaron Lee is a very good cowboy dancer.
5. Austin Rutz should wear shirts like those more often.
6. Jestine shouldn't have told Aaron about us and Austin.
7. I'm not allowed in the guys locker room to chase after Aaron.
8. Wow, that was definitely a fun night.

Ok, well I'm off to watch American Idol to see who wins..guten nagen!! *mwoa*

I hope you dance.

Hello all. Tonight, I'm going to the football players dance recital and I'm so excited..it's going to be hilarious! I am definitely taking my camera..hopefully I'll get some nice black mail pictures. It will be great..ok, well I'm outta here, I'll talk to you later, adios!

I'm hanging by a moment here with you.

Hey guys! I'm at my grandpa's house right now..Aunt Michelle is home from Hollywood for a year so she can go to John Hopkin's School to become a nurse. She drove across the country in six days and has only been here for about a week. It's good to have her back. Too bad Tomas went back to California..that would have been awesome if he would've stayed here, but I understand why he didn't. His house, his job, his family..all back in California. Haha he gave the landlord 2 weeks notice to move out of his house, because he wants to find a different place..well, he didn't find anywhere to go, so the landlord said that if the girls that were looking at it today didn't buy it, then he could have it. Well, they won't buy it..that's a fact. He took a dead cockroach he found at work and stuck it on the counter in the kitchen to scare them off..and I am almost positive it worked. :D Haha..yeah, today was the mock trial. It was horrible..the prosecution had a great opening statement..and ours wasn't so great. They got Agent Chambers in a few things..(BECAUSE RACHEL WASN'T THINKING haha)..they tried to get Lori Lorcin, but Autumn was pretty good..the only thing was the whole year/month thing. It was in the store for a YEAR, but in a display case for a WEEK. That was the information that the jury did not get..if they would have, I think that we may have won. Anyways, Kevin was being such a jerk today..to everyone. Me and Kristin especially. He's one of those people that is "never wrong". And when they are, they don't admit it. I hate people like that. And he thinks he's so much better then everybody else, but no, he's definitely not. Not with the way he acts. But whatever, as long as I have no classes with him next year, I'll be fine. So here's my schedule for next year...

1 semester..
B1 - Health (even) (Miller)
- PAC (odd) (Nickel)
B2 - Earth Science (Lockhart)
B3 - Graphic Arts (even) (Heiser)
- Basic Foods (odd) (Wampler)
B4 - Hon. American History (Minnich)

2 semester..
B1 - PE (odd) (Hubert)
- Photo (even) (Mellinger)
B2 - English (Zimmerman)
B3 - Geometry (Schwartz)
B4 - French 2 (Vanasdalan)

Ok, that's all for today folks. Adios!

It's the simple thought of you that brightens my day.

Hello all. Last night was fun. A bunch of us met at Panera for dinner and (of course) coffee. Haha we had a blast! Tonight, a bunch more of us are going to John and Candy's! Yay! Haha and when I got home last night, Ralph, Jer, and Elliot were here and we all watched the Flyers game (they lost 2-1). We ordered pizza from Gio's and it took an hour and a half to get here and then they brought the wrong one..so half an hour later, they come back with the right pizza. Haha I asked Elliot what the bacon cheeseburger pizza tasted like and he goes "Bacon cheeseburger." I guess if you ask a stupid question you'll get a stupid answer. Well, I have to call Kendra and let her know about tonight, so I'm gonna head out. And after discussions with Abby, Elliot, and Meredith, I'm over him. After quite a while, I'm fine. Haha yes, I have moved on..to older..*ahemLyleMillerahem* haha, no, I'm good..nice and single. Ahhh, this is the life. Haha

ilu ... abby

I've got to fight this one alone.

Hey guys! Tonight everyone went to Logan's house to watch Miracle and eat pizza and hang out. Yeah, Lindsay and I were walking around the neighborhood the whole time. We ended up getting lost, being chased by the stupid biker people, being attacked by a dog, having fireballs thrown at us, writing kozup a note and putting it on his car, and learning from Abby that tall guys are better kissers than short ones. Haha, so tonight was a lot more fun than I thought it would be, but that may be because we weren't in Logan's house with some certain people. One thing that I've been wondering about though...what is Meredith's surprise? I have no idea what it could be. It's something made out of wood and only Abby and Emily know what it is. Logan won't tell anyone else. It's something that Logan has never given anyone before (except maybe Abby, I'm not sure). She'll get it at Promo, so I'll find out then. OOOOO kiss the clock! Haha and the clock doesn't have cooties (Aaron)...and you have mine. But they don't taste like anything without the owner and I still have to get your cuties haha. That was funny..Anyways, back to tonight. Me and Lindsay were gone for like almost 2 hours and someone said something about there being a rapist in Boiling Springs, so Meredith went looking for us with this huge stick. They called around the neighborhood to see if we were at anyone's house. The guys were riding their bikes around trying to find us -- haha they were like freaking out! I felt so loved! Haha wow that was definitely the best night I've had in a while. Ok, well I'm not gonna write in here anymore parce il n'y a pas plus parler. I'll talk to you all later, guten nagen!

ilu ... abby

You have the smile that I'm after. I'm crazy for your laughter.

There are those times when you just feel like running away...when you feel so away from the world. You just need to find a way to get out...get out of all these lies. Sometimes it's just too much to take...to take all the lies. You know it's not true, but you want to keep believing those lies because they sound so good. You want them to come true. You just want everything to turn out right...but it never does. Everything changes. People change. You just want them to come back. When they say, "You've changed, when will the old you come back?", my answer is easy -- I'll come back when you do. It's funny the way dreams work out. They never turn out quite the same way you dreamed them. They twist and turn and dissappoint, leaving you wanting so much more. I don't know which to blame: the dream itself or the reality that dissolved the dream. Dreams of a happy family -- one that doesn't fight over the stupidest things. One that's honest to each other. They don't hide deep secrets. Dreams of the sweet talk being true. But they're lies...all lies. I keep telling myself that I'll be fine...that inside, I'm fine...that my life is perfect the way everyone thinks. I'll just keep putting that smile on my face. Maybe someday, someone will notice that my whole world has been a lie lately. "How are you?" "Just a little heartbroken, but I'll be fine." Maybe someone will notice that this world that I've built of love and cheer...it's just killing me inside. Maybe someone will look into my eyes and see a world of hurt that's dying to come out. Tears that are waiting to be cried. Maybe someone will offer their shoulder for me to cry on...someone who cares. Lately, nothing has been going my way. Every time I think I've found a way out of this hole I'm in, it's just another lie. I don't know how much longer I can take this.

^That's the note I wrote during math class today. Just had to get my feelings out somehow.

If only dreams came true..

Hello all. How is everyone? Good, I hope. Today wasn't a bad day. School was boring, but the French final was soooo easy! I thought it was going to be hard, but it wasn't. After school, me, Courtney, Trish, Lexi, and Kat went to the weight room. It was..interesting. Kozup was bugging me and Courtney. No, I don't like Kevin. I never will. He's like my least favorite person -- ever. He came up to me at lunch today and was like, "Do you hate me? Why do you ignore me?" Because you're stuck-up and think you're better than everyone else, that's why. Haha no one tell him I'm saying any of this. Anyways, I get my schedule for high school on Monday and I'm really excited..I might have basic foods with Aaron! Haha that will be so much fun! And then I went to Elliot's baseball game..they were up by one when I left. Lyle Miller plays short-stop..mmm. Haha he's so fine. Well, je vais aller mange ma glace. <-- I had my French final today, can you tell?

ilu ... abby

why do you do what you do to me, baby?

Hello all. Today was an OK day. I haven't had a truely good day in such a long time. Today we went to the cafe..that was fun! Haha everyone got chocolate milkshakes..they were good too! But I should have gotten an Italian Soda..I was in the mood for one. But no, I didn't. One of the many dumb things I've done lately. The biggest one is letting myself believe in something that's not real, nor will it ever be. I've just been lying to myself lately. Well, whatever..here's a little quiz that I'm gonna go. I got it from Ali's blog.spot -- Here goes.

Name four bad habits you have:
1. being too honest when I shouldn't be.
2. procrastinating.
3. pretending things aren't the way they are.
4. laughing when I shouldn't.

Name four things you wish you had:
1. a happy family.
2. a video camera.
3. a million dollars.
4. an older brother.

Name four scents you love:
1. the smell of rain.
2. coffee.
3. sweet pea.
4. so pink.

Name four things you'd never wear:
1. anything from walmart (haha kendra).
2. anything string bean green.
3. anything sweet potato orange.
4. gold and silver together.

Name four things you are thinking about right now:
1. "don't be trifling." -- jordan
2. me and courtney's killing rampage.
3. my mom and tyler.
4. my french final.

Name four things that you have done today:
1. went to the cafe.
2. went to the weight room.
3. went for a little run.
4. read 2 magazines.

Name the last four things you have bought:
1. a ham crossant sandwich.
2. a chocolate milkshake
3. a chocolate chip cookie.
4. butter pecan ice cream.

Name four people you would like to spend more time with:
1. tyler.
2. people from bca.
3. my family.
4. my friends.

Name four bands/groups most people don't know you like:
1. blindside.
2. pax217.
3. concrete blonde.
4. JOSIE AND THE PUSSYCATS! haha kaila, that was soo much fun.."6 whole hours.."

Name four drinks you regularly drink:
1. coffee.
2. ice milk
3. juice.
4. sprite.

Name four random facts about yourself:
1. the color of my eyes are always changing.
2. I have a birthmark on my stomach.
3. the walls of my room are blue, green, and purple stripes.
4. my birthday is october 16.

Ok, everyone, toodles!!

If you're hurting, so am I.

Hey guys. How is the outside world today? I don't think I would really know. Somethings been going on inside this head of mine, and I don't really know what it is exactly. See, when I fall, I fall hard. And it takes so long for me to get back up. I try and I try, but I keep falling for all the sweet talk. I need to learn to be my own person and not believe everything that I'm told. I just want to be able to keep my heart from getting hurt again. That seems to be the time-line that my life is following. Well, I'm sure that none of you care about this, so I'll move on..

So tomorrow my French class is going to the cafe! I'm so excited! Haha I wish the other class could come too, that would be so much fun! Courtney, we could so take over the lake haha. But, the only bad part about going there as a FRENCH class, is that we have to order in French. Go figure. Ok, well I'm off to study for my science test, I'll talk to ya later, bye!


Love always,
Abby

I've been thinking of you lately.

Hello everyone. This is my first blog. There's not much to say either. Just that I've been hurting lately. My family is breaking apart at the seams. The whole thing with Tyler and his medicine is killing everyone. It's so hard to live like everything's okay. No one really knows what I am talking about because I haven't told anyone except Kendra. This is slowly tearing me apart. I have to sit back and watch everyone aim to kill, and miss. They land a little closer each time. I'm just waiting for the day they'll hit the target. I feel like that day will be coming oh-so-soon.


With all that said, I'm not doing too bad. My life isn't spinning around in circles anymore. I know what I want, all I need to do is get it. I would explain more, but I have to get going. I'll see you all tomorrow at school. Goodnight.